WHY-ness???

*** first, i must admit... i've been too Lazy to write... =( aLthough there's too much to teLL!... &&& my "project" is stiLL on hoLd... (hopefuLLy it won't be on hoLd FOREVER!!!)

nyhoo, im writing as a quick update...

1. its been 1 month & 25 days to be exact since im back here in the PhiLippines... i had my driver's License renewed aLready, but stiLL not driving.. hehe im on a HUGE food trip!.. (meaning, im trying to eat everything that i missed during my 5-year absence... hehehe) my sister & i have been doing a daiLy adventure, since we're by ourseLves... & by adventure, i mean FOOD adventure... hahaha we aLways say that we'LL bring our camera so we can take pictures, but we aLways forget... so no pics here...

2. i've been on search for REDBULL!!! &&& today!!!.... i found it!!! yaaaaayyyyy!!! uber uber HAPPY!!! =D it came in with a different packaging though... & im not sure if it tastes the same... im kinda scared to open it & taste it coz it may not be the same... but i wiLL drink it, proLy tomorrow!... so we'LL see... ^_^ but uber happy! hehehehe

3. i've aLso been on search for a substitute... yes! not a repLacement, coz SaLLy Hansen is irrepLaceabLe... ehehehe so yeah, searching for a substitute for my SH coLLection.. i've seen quite a Lot, they're ok.. but not totaLLy... but today, i found an awesome naiL oiL (it heLps maintain your naiL coLor)!!! yaaaaayyyy! >_< &&& its scented! hehehe oh yeah, im thinking of starting a business with my LOVE of naiL poLish.. we'LL see how that one goes... for now, Let me show you my naiL art for the week! (i used::: SH insta-dry pronto purpLe base, SH insta-dry yeLLow, &&& SH Hard as NaiLs fuschia) yaaaayyy! ^_^

4. i am taking MedicaL TechnoLogy right now... so bye-bye nursing!... our scheduLe is kinda FUN (for me, of course)... coz we just have cLasses on Mondays, Wednesdays, & Thursdays... weLL, we were Late enroLLees, so cLasses were mostLy cLosed when we enroLLed... schooL wise, i think its going great... hahaha i have chemistry, phiLosophy with Logic, & gender deveLopment... hahahahaha =D i know right??? GENDER DEVELOPMENT!.. as i toLd my friend, maybe its good that im taking it so i can be sure of who/what i reaLLy am &&& so i can aLso heLp him decide WHAT he reaLLy is... hahaha =P... as for phiLosophy... oooohhh i have a Lot of stories here... one is the titLe of my bLog... "WHY-ness"... i mean, what the heck does that word mean??? i dunno!... where in the worLd did that word came from??? my teacher!... hahaha beLieve me, that's just one of the MANY things... there's aLso "pLease cLose the open", & he's regarding to the Lights... OMG!!! hahahahaha on the much funnier side (much na, funny-er pa!... nahahawa na ko sa teacher ko!... paktay!),,, we had our preLims Last two weeks ago... & as ive said on my FB stat::: "i was surprised at the resuLt of my phiLosophy's preLim exam... i didn't expect to get a good grade, not even pass... but i did! yaaayyy! ^_^ then my teacher asked, 'how did you do it?'... i answered, 'sir! sadyang normaL na piLosopo Lang po taLaga ako!... naturaL ba!' hahahahaha =D"

5. i miss LB!... i do! i reaLLy reaLLy do!... i miss my mommy & daddy berry berry much!... =( &&& everyone too!... (i wouLd name names but then, if i miss someone's name i might get in troubLe... ) but yeah, you know who you are guys! i miss u aLL... but i must say a speciaL mention to::: bechay, siopao, & Labs!... ehehehe ^_^

-- LastLy... a Lot of things changed when we Left pinas... & now that we're back, i think we're stiLL deaLing & coping with those changes... there's the MAT (THAT is another story... its quite Long & i don't wanna make this bLog too Long... so proLy another time, iLL rant & vent about it)... the prices of things!... the peopLe... some makes me sad, but i know it wiLL pass... so yeah, watch out for the MAT bLog... hahahaha

*** ok.. that's it!... im outs!... promise!, iLL write soon!... ^_^

aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!...

i am bLogging because im kinda pissed... actuaLLy not pissed... more Like frustrated... naiinis ako!!! i wanna scream & yeLL out Loud... i wanna cry too, weLL, im actuaLLy crying aLready... i wanna punch & throw stuffs!... aaaaaaaarrrrrrgggghhhh!!!...

*tears*tears*tears*

naLoLoka na naman ako!!! & not the good way kind of Loka... :( :( :(

*sigh*

i don't know what to do... i don't know.....

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im stiLL having a hard time with the time difference...

i can now say, that im haLfway done with the jetLag thing... proLy due to the fact that i sLeep whenever & wherever... haha aLthough, it was hard at first coz i have to controL & stop myseLf from faLLing asLeep during the day... >_<

OMG!!! since i got back Last wednesday... i've been eating a Lot!!! Like reaLLy... A LOT!!! im even surprised myseLf!!! my sister too! &&& im aLways hungry... especiaLLy at breakfast...

im happy that im back... & that i get to see my Loved ones & reLatives, especiaLLy my two LoLo!!! but at the same time, im sad... i miss my mom & dad... i miss my bech... i miss LB!!! & my friends... i miss our bathroom too!  =* oh! & i miss my ring... i feeL weird without it... i've been unconsciousLy (many times a day), fixing my index finger as if there's a ring on it... not reaLLy fixing my index finger, as if it can be repositioned or something.. its more Like, i touch it to fix the ring, onLy there's no ring on it right now... its ok though, i know i Left it to someone who'LL take care of it! >_< & op kors, i miss that someone too! hehe =*

then, i found out there's a godiva cheesecake at cheesecake factory... i FOUND OUT JUST WHEN i GOT BACK!!! aaarrrrggghhh!!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!! toLd dye dye & dadeee, but they're soooo MEAN they won't send me even a sLice!!! hmmmpppfff!

just thought id share this... i Left a Lot of my cLothes just so i can bring my entire naiL poLish coLLection! hahahaha =D

oh & since i got back, ive been going on YM a Lot... &&& im on for the whoLe day... even when we go out, iLL just Leave it on untiL my Laptop sLeeps on its own... aLthough, im usuaLLy on invisibLe mode! hahaha

a Lot were surprised with the news of us coming back & being here... hehe i dunno! haven't seen my friends yet, but wiLL soon...

oooohhh &&& i MiGHT go to MOA tonight with my cousins... hehe first time!!! =P

BOMB

--> ok!... so here it is...

im back home... here in pinas... just got here today, around Lunch time...

ish raining but ish hot... oohhh &&& im kinda scared to drive! hahaha stiLL, Lots of things to settLe... ok then, gotta sLeep! i feeL Like im a vampire here! haha

ps:::

i miss mommy & daddy... & my bech, & siopao too! & eberione there... good thing i have godiva! hahaha =P 

where's the 5, peopLe? where's the 5?

i recentLy put that as my status shoutout at FB & peopLe thought that im taLking about peopLe... Like im Looking for 5 peopLe... but no! im not... just the 5... ahaha i know it sounds weird & nonsense... but here goes the story...

for the past week.. i've been Looking for a cute, comfortabLe, affordabLe, & worth it sandaLs/sLippers... i know that cathy jean & payLess do have my size... & sometimes, as in SOMETiMES, when i get Lucky... some pLaces too... but this past week... OMG! i've went to aLL the shoe store aLready at Lakewood maLL, & meyn! NONE! see, i've had my frustrations on my feet a few times... not that its onLy smaLL but my toe naiLs are smaLL too... so its hard to put naiL poLish on!... aLL the shoe store i went to, their smaLLest size is 5.5 or sometimes 6... so i tried asking for the kids' size, & their biggest is 4... so my question is, where is the 5, peopLe??? what happened to the 5??? it's my favorite number as weLL!!!!... so frustrating!!! so, i went to payLess as my Last resort, coz i know they rareLy have great stuffs on size 5... & to my disappointment, they don't have any good stuffs.. so i ended up not having my dreams sandaLs/sLippers!... =(

on the other hand, we just had a smaLL gathering for my sister's bday... i had a great time! it was nice to have a party for her, coz usuaLLy she doesn't Like having a party for her bday... it was a great night with great peopLe... pLus, i got to taLk to this one person after,,, hmmm,,, i dunno... months? hehe good deed! *cLap*cLap* oh & finaLLy, heard the "i hate you"! hahaha i know its not a good thing for most peopLe, but beLieve me... it totaLLy made me feeL better! & for me, it is a good thing!... hahaha weird!

oh weLL, very busy week coming ahead... pLus, Lots of things to do... on top of the List: make bech cry! haha make it sink in for her & for me as weLL!... oh & mani/pedi! haha squeeze everything!... hehe

WHAT iS YOUR FEAR???

"what is your fear?"

i usuaLLy see that question on surveys on FB/MS/FS... & i usuaLLy answer, "being aLone, or having no one around me"... but Last night, since i couLdn't sLeep... i had some time to think... & this was one of the things that came into my mind... this question... & Last night, i found my answer...

"what is your fear?"

--- yes, i fear being aLone &/or having no one around me... but thinking about it, even if i am physicaLLy aLone, i am not reaLLy aLone-aLone... He wiLL aLways be with me... no matter what... no matter where... no matter when... He wiLL take care of me... that said, i wiLL never be aLone!... so what is my fear? my fear is being forgotten... having no one remember me... that is my fear... i've been in a Lot of situations where i saw peopLe move on... where i Left a pLace, & that pLace grew... it changed... & the peopLe changed... i know that change is inevitabLe... but it scares me to even think that peopLe forget me... i DON'T WANT TO BE FORGOTTEN!!! i may have Lost communication to some peopLe that became a part of my Life... but i remember aLL of you!... so, i don't wanna be forgotten!... & this scares me,,, because another chapter of my Life is about to unfoLd... 

--- i don't want you to forget me... if you (READER) think that im being conceited, arrogant, egotisticaL, or whatever... then you have a probLem... go think wiseLy!...

--- i don't want you to forget me... even if the onLy thing that couLd remind you of me is the part of me being mean to you, or being a b*tch to you... that's ok, at Least you remember me...

--- i don't want you to forget me... 

ps::: i feeL Like bLogging every night... hahahaha WORD!...

because i can't sLeep...

i can't sLeep... &&& i need to sLeep coz i have to wake up earLy tomorrow... but eh, i can't sLeep... i feeL Like im running out of time...

it's finaL... 100% happening...

Lots of things to do... Lots of things to settLe... & i don't think i have much time...

"His wiLL be done."

SO FAR...

WARNiNG::: no train of thought whatsoever... fuLL of grammaticaL errors... no topic sentence... in short,,, maguLo to! >_<

START --> my bech (bestfriend) brought me to a naiL suppLy store, kinda Like a mini costco for naiL stuffs,,, &&& it was Like being in a candy store = AWESOME!... boiLing crab is deLishyoso!... im aLways eating & aLways hungry,,, Like every 2 hours!... i haven't seen angeLs & demons yet,,, but i SOOOOO want to watch it right now!... Last May 17, around 8:39 PM - there was a 5.1 earthquake!... it was reaLLy scary,,, there was a JOLT! Like a JOLT JOLT!!! =/... that same night, what i did was sincere... op kors, i care!... there was another earthquake yesterday, the 19th,,, i didn't feeL it, but my dad did, & report said it was 4.1... i feeL Like any moment, there's gonna be another earthquake,,, how scary!!!... i might be running out of time =(... i wanna taLk & say sorry, but i don't know how to... i'm stiLL so addicted to naiL poLish!... i discovered a bLog about kikay stuffs --- check it out girLfriends! (http://www.xsparkage.com/)... my sister's bday is coming,,, i wanna go to disneyLand!!!... i finaLLy went shopping Last monday after soooo many months! haha... picnic on memoriaL monday,,, must Look cute! heehee... panahon na ng mangga!!! weeeeee.... it's getting hotter in here,,, must wear sunbLock!!!... i never got to start my "project",,, what a Lazy person! =P... right now, my naiLs are pink! ^_^... sometimes i hate my feet coz they're smaLL, it's hard to Look for shoes,,, pLus my toe naiLs are smaLL too & its sooo hard to put naiL poLish on!... i need to find & buy a good pair of sLippers/sandaLs... shawn johnson won DWTS!!! hehe i voted for her!!! aLthough, giLLes marini is HOT!!!... Grey's Anatomy's season finaLe = heart-stopping! breath-taking! what wiLL happen??? i can't wait!!!... Gossip GirL season finaLe = *sigh* too much kiLig!!! where oh where can i find my own Chuck Bass?!? hehehe >_<... if,,, im 100% sure about what wiLL happen to me,,, do you stiLL wanna know?... congratuLations to those who pass 2nd semester & 1st semester of the program!... i want a ray-ban wayfarer sungLasses! oh Santa, i've been good! though i don't ceLebrate xmas, you can just give it to me now! haha >_<... i have a reason for the things i did... ooohhh! i aLso want a monokini swimsuit! haha... i staLk you sometimes, so i can see that you're doing great! which is great!!!... we need new designs for indigo... i wanna go to a Library & borrow books... i reaLLy think that my sister needs to Learn how to drive!!! hahaha... i stiLL have a Lot of windang moments!!!... there's a short wait for SchindLer's List at netfLix,,, & i can't wait anymore... i think Adam Lambert shouLd have won american idoL!... i haven't had red buLL for Like 3 months now,,, cLap! cLap!... i had a weird/funny dream the other night about my HS cLassmates & my eLementary crush,,, hahaha... & now, i shaLL end this... weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee >_<