scary...

it's been a whiLe... i don't have much things going on to write in here that's why no new post... but right now,,, i want to teLL the whoLe worLd what im thinking, what im feeLing & most especiaLLy i want this to be a warning... haha =D

to someone::: YOU are definiteLy not cLoseLy reLated to me, not my cLose friend nor even my boyfriend... so don't act Like one!!! STOP teLLing me what i shouLd or shouLdn't do! STOP bugging me!!! STOP caLLing me every now and then... STOP acting Like what you're acting because... YOU ARE SCARiNG ME!!! you're giving me the creeps!!! & i DON'T Like it, very much!!! but thanks for being nice and aLL, its just that i think you are heading too cLose to the "Line"... if we can be the way we were before, that wouLd be great, no weird stuffs & no YOU caLLing me every... now... and... then... im saying this not to hurt you nor to make you feeL bad... i just want to CLEAR stuffs even before it goes too far,,, out of controL... u know... i don't want to feeL bad as weLL ignoring you (because you are scarring me..), but you Leave me no choice... so yeah, if you couLd step back some more, that wouLd be greatLy appreciated... ^_^ remember, i don't intend to hurt you or anything... just making myseLf cLear! ok?

nyhoo,,, Life is stiLL the same... no fairy taLes,,, just YET! but stiLL hoping & beLieving... there's a Lot of new movies coming & thank God, so far i am updated... haha =D Life has never been better for me... tough times came but survived... schooL wise, God's hearing my prayers... im staying focus on my goaL which is reaLLy reaLLy good! =) i have a week vacation Left before summer cLass starts... (better make the most out of it)! but yeah, im taking summer cLass... kinda scared not because of what im taking but because......... just because... haha =D

Strawberries and Champagne. . .

im tired...

i don't know why im even typing this...
it's nonsense!!!

there's a Lot of stuffs going on in my mind... i can't heLp thinking, even if i don't want to think anymore... it's stuck there! it won't go away!!! worst, it's scrabbLed... i can't put it together and i can't do something about it... i can't teLL anyone because i don't know what to teLL them...

anyhow... i know this wiLL pass!!! for sure! ^_^

Strawberries are good... Champagne??? yeah they're good too,,, i think??? haha =D stiLL, i need more chocoLates! chocoLates heLp! they aLways heLp... ^_^

for me:::
- soft tacos are better than hard tacos...
- not commenting on something is better than saying something stupid...
- mao is the best card game so far...
- red is awesome! best coLor invented ever...
- hoLding back something inside can be exhausting...
- chocoLates are one of the best things in the worLd...
- Grey's Anatomy,,, simpLy the best!
- everybody needs a "person"...

fiLL it in. . .

Dear KrystLe,

You make me __________. You should __________. Someday I will _______. You = __________. If I saw you right now I would _________. I would build ________ just for you. I would get your name tattooed on my _________. If I could sing a song it would be _________. We could drink _______ under the stars. My love for you is like that of ________.

Love, __________

P.S. ( _________.)

*** saw this at my friend's myspace bLog (using my sister's account)... i think it's cute when ppoL answer it back... haha =D so yeah, to everyone who wants to answer it, send it to my emaiL... hugss! ^_^

do you think it's gonna rain tonight?

fact is::: i'm gay! =)

i miss my Long hair... =( but short hair is better, Less time fixing it... haha

im so broke, i want to work again... i miss having $$$ to buy foods and cLothes... having no money s*cks!

can't wait for Grey's Anatomy Season Three on DVD... haha =D adik!!!

i'm being Lazy these past few weeks... and i totaLLy hate it! i need more chocoLates and encouragement...

we've just started dissecting a cat in my Anatomy cLass,,, Like a reaL dead cat... it's awesome!!! totaLLy cooLness!!! though the cat stinks... i think it's fun... uber-enjoyabLe... ^_^

i saw a video cLip of CindereLLa III and i think it's cooL... anyone who owns the DVD, pLease Lend it to me... im curious... "what if the sLipper didn't fit?"

yeah...

what if the sLipper didn't fit? it couLd be a good thing... or maybe NOT... if the sLipper didn't fit,,, there's no 'happiLy ever after'... no fairy taLe, no fireworks, no magic... my worLd wiLL sureLy be dark!!! Lame!!! ugLy!!! so, good thing it's just an IF... the sLipper did fit after aLL... ^_^

QUESTION::: do you eat baLut? incLuding the sisiw?

bLessing...

"the greatest thing you'LL ever Learn is just to Love and be Loved in return." - Christian of Moulin Rouge >>> we wait... and wait... and wait... even if it takes forever, we keep on waiting... even if we know that sometimes we're waiting for nothing, for no one...

"surgeons are controL freaks. with a scaLpeL in your hand you feeL unstoppabLe." - Meredith of Grey's Anatomy >>> who cares! i stiLL want to be a surgeon... haha =D i can see myseLf hoLding a scaLpeL and saving someone's Life... that is just GREAT!!! ^_^

first week of cLass = DONE! aLL the get-to-know-your-teacher-and-cLassmates stuff is DONE... honestLy, i actuaLLy freaked out Last friday because of my Anatomy cLass... it's overwheLming! but yeah, im surviving it... the freaking-out part is over! for now, im concentrating... eLiminating the bad thoughts and just doing my best... ^_^

super duper great-EST news::: i saw my Last term's finaL exam on Math... the test was worth 200 points... ok enough said! you figure out the rest and why it's the super duper great-EST news... i don't want to be the big headed here... hahaha =D but yeah, im GLAD!!! ^_^ FYI though::: i didn't get 200 points...

fact::: once more He proved to me that even if i don't ask for things verbaLLy, He Listens to my heart and He gives it to me in the right time... when i Least expect it!

more facts::: patience is a virtue... no need to rush because it wiLL aLL come to you in the right time, right pLace, right day and the right moment... ^_^ Learn to trust... as they aLways say, trust is Like a vase... once broken, though you can fix it, the vase wiLL never be the same again... =] disguising is fun... smiLe even if the whoLe worLd is on your shouLder... it heLps make stuffs easier, funnier and Lighter... =D

i can't faLL in Love with anyone.................................. wait!!! did i say CAN'T??? gosh! what is wrong with me??? haha =D this is funny!!! anyway, this is NOT an impLication that i AM currentLy in Love with someone nor i am NOT in Love with someone... get it? but yeah, to y'aLL peopLe... it's ugLy! totaLLy ugLy to say something NICE to someone then vanish! *poof* it became koko krunch! not the LiteraL vanish, vanish... but just vanish... seriousLy?!? Like seriousLy?!?! seriousLy... i just don't get it!!!

FINE... over and out! ^_^

new year...

HAPPY NEW YEAR Y'ALL!!!

here i am,,, again,,, speaking my heart out... weLL reaLLy, i just don't want the first day of the new year pass by without posting something even if it's nonsense... haha

~im expecting my Laptop tomorrow... hopefuLLy UPS won't Let me down... haha =D
~i miss New Year in the PhiLippines, it's totaLLy different! it's Louder, noisier, messier, and the best!
~i ate a Lot this hoLiday, especiaLLy crab...
hoping it adds up to my weight (cross fingers)... hehe

my new years' resoLution: to be a better person in aLL aspects of Life...

"i may not be that good of a person Last year, i may have done a Lot of seLfish things, and i may have hurt a Lot of peopLe... beLieve me, i know! but it's the new year, a new start, a new beginning... a time where you Leave the past behind and make it as a strong buiLding bLocks of your future... others may think differentLy as i do, some may not even understand it, but it's the mystery of Life... it's what makes Living in this worLd exciting... for now, i just want to be happy... happier..."

i don't know. . .

how come a Lot of peopLe feeL it? how come most of the peopLe i know, has it or is feeLing it? am i that bad not to feeL it? i kept searching since the day i knew what "it" meant... stiLL, haven't got any answers... stiLL, haven't experienced it... why? i don't know...

my reading teacher Last monday read a book titLed "The True Story of the Three Little Pigs", i haven't heard nor read this book... i onLy know that the woLf was the BIG BAD woLf, period! it was a funny book, hiLarious even... a cup of sugar and a sneeze made the Three LittLe Pigs' story... maybe we're not used to hearing the other side of the story... maybe I AM not used to hearing the other side of the story... maybe some wouLd just want to stick with the one they grew up with... i don't know...

"i don't know"... is that a bad word? what does it reaLLy mean? how come when i say it, peopLe think it's a bad word? weird!!!

i've heard someone say im stubborn... i Looked it up in the dictionary and here's what it means: "unreasonably obstinate; obstinately unmoving:" now, what is obstinate? obstinate is: "not yielding to argument, persuasion, or entreaty." so, am i reaLLy stubborn? haha i don't know!

someone aLso toLd me im pretty... hihihi ^_^ i said thank you, then another someone said "don't beLieve him (the guy who said im pretty), because even he thinks pokwang is pretty!" hahaha Laughed my heart out that time, i aLmost cried because of Laughing... =D so what? at Least that day, even if i was feeLing stupid and irritated, someone said i was pretty... **giggLe**

Last sunday night, i gave my mom my code for my ATM card... she asked me why am i teLLing her, then i said: "you know, just in case God takes me tomorrow... at Least someone knows my pin#... and you couLd have aLL the money there, it's not a Lot but you can have it..." my mom Laughed so hard... funny! then i reaLized one more reason why i am stiLL aLive... and that is to make my mom happy! ^_^

right now, aLL i know is that i made a Lot of mistakes... im a human being! other than that, i don't know... guess, onLy few peopLe wiLL understand and wouLd reamain cLose to me... stiLL, i stand with what i beLieve in! ^_^ no matter what, no matter how...

oh yeah, it's my finaLs at schooL... started today and ending on next wednesday... prayers wouLd be reaLLy heLpfuL peopLe... and chocoLates too... ^_^ worLd pish!

bAnYo QuEeN

i'm totaLLy confused about a Lot of things... ok, maybe i got it aLL wrong... im unfair, seLfish, careLess, whatever! but who cares, it's my birthday tomorrow.. and i'm aLLowed to do this??? nah!!! i know i'm not! but yeah, at night when i think about aLL the stuffs that's happening, it's Like "in the end,,, it wiLL stiLL be my fauLt..." regardLess of what and how it happened... some wiLL stiLL see it as MY fauLt... why am i writing this? guess, i just don't care at aLL...Like my mom said, "the onLy thing that matters is your reLationship with God.. whatever other peopLe say and think..." even if i try to care what other peopLe say, i just don't feeL Like it! weLL, maybe somehow i get affected too.. but who cares, i have my famiLy with me, my best friends, and most of aLL GOD...

many peopLe may not understand the way i Live my Life, the way i do things or even the way i taLk.. but that's the BOMB baby! it's how i differ from other peopLe, it's where i say, "i am unique! take it or Leave it!"

oh yeah, i am pLanning on deLeting my friendster and myspace account... but i stiLL don't know, tomorrow's the deadLine for myseLf... wheeeee!!! i thought of how wiLL my Life be without friendster and myspace??? haha and besides, i can aLways make another one if i want to... however, i wiLL be keeping my emaiL accounts and this one (my worLd!)...

before i forget, you may be thinking why "bAnYo QuEen"? weLL, here's the thing.. in our smaLL humbLe home... and when i say smaLL, it's reaLLy smaLL.. did i say smaLL? yes, it smaLL but it's a home (not just a house)... =P i find peace at the bathroom! weird eh? but yes, i do! you know how it is, when someone's inside no one can go inside too.. you own the room even just for a few minutes... what am i doing? haha Let's not go in there.. ok?

so,,, once again it's my birthday tomorrow... another year added to my age... a year where i've Learned a Lot of things... a Lot of triaLs came in our way, but we survived! haha we're stiLL aLive and stiLL breathing... there's a Lot to be thankfuL for... and in this birthday of mine, i wish (besides worLd peace! hehe)... ooppss! i forgot, i can't teLL my wish.. sorry! haha =D

LastLy, to aLL ye peopLe out there.. worLd peace starts in your own bathroom! hihihi i know it doesn't connect, but yeah! it's my worLd, remember?

xs:
pasta = $20.00... saLmon = $15.00... chicken = $10.00...
my famiLy, my friends and Loved ones = PRICELESS!!! ^_^