@ 18

im 18...

nothing changed,,, juz my age... hehe what did i do days before my birthday? went to church, watched harry potter Last saturday night (12/3) with some friends, bother my reLatives for my gifts, iron some cLothes & sLeep... hahaha what i did the morning of my birthday? wake up, brush my teeth, saw my present, cry & dress up for work... haaayy,,, how i wish my birthday were a hoLiday... time fLies sooo fast! what i did the afternoon of my birthday? went home, daydream, watched tv, ate aLot ('coz my mom cooked aLot of food) & make 'baon'... actuaLLy, im not supposed to do anything when i come home, its supposed to be a free househoLd chores day for me.. but then, my dear oLd sister was crazy & ask me to do our 'baon'... good thing, my dad heLped me out because he understands the "free househoLd chores day" & i think my sister don't... wahaha

thought about harry potter: why did they get someone cute to pLay cedric when in fact he has to die at the end??? men! that was sad... & it came so fast,,, they got transported to the graveyard & boom - avadakedavra!!! huhuhu =( & cho wasn't that cute,,, it couLd have been better if it was me... haha (waLang kokontra, birthday ko kahapon) =D =D =D

haayy, trip ko Lang gumawa ng post at mgLagay ng pic dito... waLa kasing ginagawa sa trabaho e... hehe ^_^

xs: wanna thank everyone who remembered... & to those who didn't,,, bahaLa kayo!!! wahaha ayy tsaka paLa yung mga regaLo nyo ha... hehe pish out!

aLmond_joy

*_#-$~"/* aLam nyo ba yung chocoLate na aLmond joy? miLk chocoLate with coconut & aLmonds... yan ang Lgi kong nakukuha pag nagbibigay ng chocoLate yung kasama ko sa trabaho... nagiging koLeksyon na nga sya sa bahay namin e, bakit? una, di ako kumakain nun dahiL ayaw ko ng may nuts/aLmonds/fruits... LaLo namang ayaw ko ng may coconut... kaya inuuwi ko naLang, e waLa ding nakain sa bahay.. kaya koLeksyon na sya ngayon... hahaha =D hindi naman ako maka-hindi dahiL nakakahiya Lagi na kasi akong humihindi.. kaya para sa taong nanghihingi ng chocoLate may mapapadaLa na ko, hintay ka Lang iipunin ko muna para marami... hehe */"~$-#_*

waLa Lang trip ko Lang mag-post kasi waLang magawa,,, waLa masyadong trabaho... hehehe at maLapit na kasi birthday ko.. kaya mga tao,,, padaLa nyo naLang dito... wahahahaha ^_^

xs: gusto ko ng mcdo!!!

pLease kiLL me now, so that my pain & sufferings wouLd be over.. pLease get me now, whiLe my sins are few, for if it becomes too many you may hate me & i may be unworthy.. for i may not have the strength & faith to survive the Life that Lies ahead of me.. but Your will be done.. Amen

pLease... don't do this to me!

have mercy!!!

im begging you...

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"Let me watch 'harry potter',,, there's aLways a way... hahaha"

trabaho ng isang prinsesa. . .

* APM = Assistant Production Manager
meaning. . . . .
* FC = FoiL Cutter
* WU = Wip Updater
* O = Organizer
* FS = File Searcher
* PLM = Packing List Maker
* POK = Purchase Order Keeper
* PWCGOP = Person Who Criticize Other People (specially - CHAT) hahaha
pag-uwi ng bahay. . . . .
* TAGA...
* taga-hugas ng pLato
* taga-waLis ng kwarto
* taga-Laba
* taga-pLantsa
* taga-tuLog
* taga-kain
* taga-nood ng tv
* taga-Lahat na,, pwera Lang taga-Luto.. hehe

~haayyy buhay... medyo adventure,,, every day's a new day in production... & peopLe are nice, so it's ok... got my 1st pay check... wuuuhuuuuu!!! & for that, im gonna treat myeLf for a... hmmm?? fruits basket, what eLse? hehe
~maLapit na birthday ko!!! mga ppoL,,, pa-fedex nyo naLang ang mga gift nyo... hehe
~i wouLd Like to take this opportunity to thank the ppoL who answered the sarbey... saLamat pu.. hehe touch ako... ^_^
~showing na ng harry potter gobLet of fire... can't wait to watch it!!! yehey!!! =D
~share ko Lang... i reaLLy Love this song,,, so iLL sing it for you guys... "and how can i pretend that i don't know what's going on? when every second and every minute another souL is gone... and i beLieve that in my Life i wiLL see an end to hopeLessness or giving up or suffering... and if we aLL stand together this one time then no one wiLL get Left behind... and stand up for Life stand up and here me sing... stand up for Love..." (worLd pish ppoL) hehe

beLieve me,,, it's nonsense... hahaha ^_^

it's been a whiLe since my Last post here... (waLa pa nga atang sense yung huLi eh) it's just that nothing extraordinary happened or anything that i shouLd taLk about... Life seems to be,,, simpLe... yeah,,, fun (madami kasing gmick)... but its stiLL not the same... peopLe are sLowLy fading away... i don't know why but it seems Like they are... weird i guess,,, 'coz i may be the onLy one thinking of these stuff... ahhh basta,,, i therefore concLude...

~ that my Life right now was kinda compLicated & hard... it's not the same as before... i have to hide my feeLings and thoughts because nobody wouLd understand (makadagdag pa sa stress)... i dunno! weirdiness ito! ~

+#+ oi mga ppoL,,, juz want u to know na buhay pa ko... & i shaLL return! kaya sa mga nakakaLimot,,, Lagot kayo pag baLik ko... hahahaha =D +#+

juz' pLaying around... ^_^

name 20 peopLe you know...
1. ate kim
2. kuya simon
3. ate junneL
4. kuya james
5. kg
6. nats
7. jeLLa
8. krystLe
9. fhea
10. ge
11. kaye
12. dan
13. duerms
14. austin
15. aLLen
16. rayon
17. aLex
18. kuya mark
19. orlando bLoom
20. ka dean

then, fiLL this out according to the peopLe you chose!!!
1. who is 8 going out with?
~ nobody...
2. is 9 a boy or a girL?
~ girL
3. wouLd 11 and 2 make a cute coupLe?
~ no,,, 11's aLready taken...
4. how about 18 and 4?
~ no way! 4's getting married
5. what grade is 17 in?
~ 2nd year coLLege
6. when was the Last time you taLked to 12?
~ may 17, 2005
7. what is 6's favorite band?
~ the cradLe? not sure...
8. does 1 have any sibLing/s?
~ yup yup...
9. would you ever date 3?
~ yeah,,, girL bonding! (she's my cousin)
10. would you ever date 10?
~ if he'LL ask... ^_^
11. is 16 singLe?
~ i guess,,, waLa akong baLita 'bout him...
12. what's 15's Last name?
~ syed...
13. what's 5's middLe name?
~ cabacungan...
14. what's 10's fantasy?
~ me? naah!!! i don't know,,, 'coz we juz met... ^_^
15. would 8 and 19 make a good coupLe?
~ definiteLy YES... hahaha
16. what schooL does 20 go to?
~ NEU for ministry...
17. teLL me a random fact about 11.
~ we have aLot of things in common...
18. and 1.
~ she's crazy! hahaha =P
19. have you ever had a crush on 16?
~ we're tropa,,, we Love each other... ayt?
20. where does 9 Live?
~ house... =D
21. what's 4's favorite coLor?
~ don't have time to ask him that...
22. wouLd you makeout with 14?
~ if & when we get married... =P
23. are 5 & 1 best friends?
~ no,,, 'coz 5's my bestfriend...
24. do you Like 20?
~ Like? in what sense?
25. does 8 Like 9?
~ yeah,,, she's one of my cLosest friend...
26. how did you meet 15?
~ at schooL...
27. does 3 have any pets?
~ yeah
28. is 12 oLder than you?
~ nope...
29. is 1 the sexiest person?
~ heLL no!!! hahaha =D
30. have you ever given 13 a hug?
~ yeah...

*._"-* juz sharing *-"_,*

within the past few weeks/days... (for more than a month)

~ mga natutunan at mga ginawa ~

> magLuto ng sinigang sa miso para may makain

> magpakain ng mga ibon (paroLette) para may income

> uLit-uLitin ang aLbum na covers ni regine hanggang ma-memorize ang Lyrics

> manood ng mga romantic movies (tagaLog man o engLish)

> magpicture-picture sa Lahat ng gmick

> ngumiti habang nakasakay sa roLLer coaster dahiL aLam kong may hidden camera

> sumakay sa mga kiddie rides para masamahan si amanda (sarap paLang maging 3 years oLd)

> mag-ipon ng 'greens' para may pambiLi ng fonekard

> magvacuum ng carpet

> matuLog na hindi maLikot para magkasya sa kama

> mag-maintain ng maayos na maLeta para magkasya Lahat ng damit

> mag-hope na sana makapag Log-in sa internet at wag magLoko ang computer

> pag-araLang gumana ang IR ni ate kim para magamit ko

> wag isipin ang exchange rate ng doLLar to peso o peso to doLLar dahiL waLa naman akong papapaLit

> magpasaLamat at sa wakas nakapanood din ng episode III ng starwars

> magpatawa sa gitna ng napakaraming probLema

> magtiwaLa sa 911

> magpLano ng mga gusto kong gawin sa future with my famiLy

> mangarap at mag-isip kung anong mangyayari sa birthday ko (kahit maLayo pa)

> titigan yung cute na ka-choir member namin

> iwasang magaLit sa mga tao na nag-aakaLang tanga at manhid ako

> maghintay ng katotohanan (kahit akaLa ng Lahat waLa akong aLam)...

stop, Look & read!

haayy... after 50 years nakapgOL din kami... saLamat sa napaka-gandang bahay ng tita ko na waLang sabong pampaLigo... ^_^ whoLe day bukas ang computer sa sobrang kasabikan namin ni ate kim na magOL... meant to be kasi may naabutang mga tao,,, kaya ok... worth it!

"when i got inside the pLane,,, i know there's no turning back... kahit na marami akong naiwan..."

starting a new Life is Like a game,,, you start from (zero) 0... kaiLangan matatag ka kundi baka ma-game over ka agad... kaiLangan survivor ka kundi mapag-iiwanan ka... kaiLangan di ka iyakin kasi waLang murang ice cream na mabibiLi para mapatahan ka... pero bago ko umaLis, a Lot of peopLe toLd me na maganda daw dito... kaLa siguro niLa madaLi ang buhay,,, weLL HiNDi po! kaLa nyo Lang yun...

nakakamiss ang compound namin na may oLympic size swimming pooL (summer na meron paring tubig, di nawawaLan)...yung kotse naming Laspag-Laspag na,,, pero umaandar parin at ako ang nagmamaneho (di pa ko makapagdrive dito kasi waLa pa ko Lisensya, waLa rin naman ako kotse - padaLa nyo kaya yung kotse ko)... yung coLLection kong w.i.t.c.h mag na haLos dun nauubos pera ko... yung bahay namin na Laging maLinis at may pagkain LaLo na pag may bwisita... ang mga tao sa Loob ng compound, mga batang maingay sa tanghaLi (di tuLoy ako makatuLog), tito at tita ko na di nauubusan ng pagkain at mahiLig manLibre, mga pinsan kong mapang-asar at may LoveLife (taLo pa ko, e mas bata sakin yun)... yung tindahan sa compound namin na pwede ang utang... ang church namin na konti Lang ang nakikita kong cute ^_^... ang chona's angeLs na sobrang sayang kasama at sobrang bait,,, sarap kasama sa gimick (todo na 'to!)... si LoLo bhong, si duerms, si dan_dan mga pasaway - pero sobrang bait (binigyan pa kami ng pabaon,,, "kakahiya naman!")... si PM - panget kasi e! sana Lang wag nya ko makaLimutan... ang SFC tropa - mga pagLaLakad sa initan ng araw, mga kadramahan, mga gmick, mga senti mode at Lahat na... ang barkada (hon_jeLLa, bes_kg, apyang, bim, apriL & Lex) kong panghabambuhay,,, yun bang at the end of the day when everyone's against me sa kaniLa ang bagsak ko... si hon ko na kasama ko sa hirap at ginhawa, sa iyakan o tawanan, sa init at Lamig, sa kiLig moments at barahan bLues... si bes at apyang na pag pinagsama kami ay parang waLa ng bukas... the best yung night before our fLight nasa bahay siLa at sobrang guLo LaLo ng bahay... pero ok Lang i'LL be missing them badLy... sayang the rest - i didn't even see them,,, but they stiLL got a minute to make me smiLe and say the best ang barkadang to... haaayyy,,, nakakamis taLaga ang p.i (hindi yan bad word - phiL isLand daw sabi niLa)... pero sabi nga niLa, ok Lang daw sakin na mamiss ko ang p.i at mag-isip ng sobra... kasi daw tumatakaw ang tao pag sobrang nag-iisip, kaya ok Lang daw para tumaba ako... ^_^

dagdag pa natin ang sad reaLity... THEY'VE MOVED ON! ALL OF THEM... i mean, ano ba naman at nawaLa kami ni ate kim... kung yun nga sa kanya,,, nagpaLit na ng picture e... yung akin,,, meron ba? waLa naman! hirit pa ko e noh... pero nagmimiscoL sakin si PM... hehe =) pero the rest, waLa... kasaLanan ko pa!

pasensya na at mahaba ito... ibinuhos ko na Lahat baka kasi after 50 years uLit bago kami makapagOL... dapat taLaga di ako magpopost dito dapat dun sa isang bLogspot na ginawa ko,,, kaso waLang frontpage dito... e di hindi ko ma-edit... probLema tuLoy pano gagawin ko,,, kaiLangan maiLabas ang mga dapat sabihin pero waLang pa ko makitang paraan... bahaLa na si superman,,, LaLagay ko naLang sa bote tapos papaanod ko sa pacific ocean baka sakaLing makarating sa.......... aLam nyo na yun... hahaha ^_^

SANA MAY ANGHEL NA MAGDALA DITO... ng bahay namin at Lahat ng gamit sa Loob nun... kotse namin... safeguard na sabon yung fruity fLavor,,, waLa kasi nun dito... chowking (HP branch) pati yung mga crew para di na maLungkot ate kim ko... computer shop para hindi Lang once every 50 years ang pagOL ko... isang mansyon at sa Loob nun Lahat ng mga mahaL ko na naiwan... sana posibLe,,, para masaya na... at para hindi probLema kahit hindi ko marepLyan ang mga tao ok Lang,,, mahaL ang text dito pag gLobe noh! kainis,,, sana pwede sun kaso hindi e... hehe ^_^

o chige,,, enough of this buLL... how i wish that next time, i won't be this crazy... chiLL!

im back. . .

nagpahinga Lang ng konti,,, stress kasi ang schooL...weLL, ok na... tapos na schooL pati ang pamatay na mga dejavu... haha ^_^

bakasyon na dapat, pero eto dami paring gingawa... may mga nakakabadtrip meron din namang mga masasaya...

- voLunteer teacher kasi sa isang summer kinder program, tapos makakasama mo pa e mga batang mas pasaway pa kesa sakin... pati baon kong junk food kinukuha, pati yung pepsi na Libre ng pinsan ko inubos, kainis! oh weLL, ganun taLaga ang buhay...

- eto pa... dahiL waLa ng pasok,,, waLang baon! bankrupt tuLoy... ang mga naipon na papeL ay dapat i-budget para Laging may pang-gimick... hehe ^_^ somehow ok na rin kasi bawas gastos ang napaka-mahaL na gas...

- tapos, dito Lang kmi sa bahay hanggang sa mabuLok... di makauwi ng tarLac kasi waLang pera, waLa din siLa mama kaya waLa taLaga... =( Lagi pang gumigising ng maaga dahiL 8:00 ang pasok, na dati pag summer nananaginip paLang ako ng mga oras na yon... haaayyy...

- worst... dumadating na ang mga biLL... biLL ng kuryente, ng tubig, ng cabLe, ng teLepono at Lahat na ng uri ng biLL na dapat bayaran... paubos na ang grocery sa bahay kaya mahirap tumanggap ng bisita kasi waLang mapapakain... nakakahiya tuLoy,,, hehe

- happy side naman (showbiz gmick)... the best ang Last day ng exams namin, business math... nagsimuLa ng 9:00 ang test, may natapos ng 9:30, 9:40, 9:45 (isa ko dun)... biLis noh?! eto astig... dumating si bugs siguro mga 9:15 naka-civiLian, di tuLoy tinanggap ni miLevoi (baLik tuLoy sya sa bahay niLa)... pagtapos ko ng mga 9:45, sakto dating ni maLsi... Late na pero sigurado ko nauna pa siLa ni bugs na Lumabas sa iba... habang kami niLa rayon nag-iintay sa Lobby ng schooL mga 2 oras na rin... tinxt ko si bugs (mga 11 na yun) kung nasan na siLa, sabay repLy... "dito Library, ng neneopets..." kainis! ang iniintay namin nagLaLaro na paLa sa Lib... pero after the Long wait,,, nakaaLis narin... yung mga bagong gising sa fuLL house, bumangon narin after namin magdrama ni ate kim... =D kainan na!!! ayos taLaga... napagsarahan na kami ng dad's & naubos na namin fud niLa (naLugi siguro siLa, tingin nyo?) hehe... bsta, the best un... sobrang unforgetabLe... LaLo na ung ayaw mag-start ng tseko ko, badtrip un! kita tuLoy niLa pano ko magwaLa pag dating sa tseko... hehe ^_^ tapos cyempre para makaLusot sa checkpoint sa bf, kaiLangan ang charm... dahiL girL ako, Lusot kami... haha iwas traffic din yun ah! so happy taLaga... =) videoke naman nung gabi ang trip... syempre di mawawaLa ang nationaL anthem ng tropa na kinanta ni nats... si kuya mark naman, hiLig sa mic... si maLsi, taga-input ng susunod na number ng kanta - pero di sya kumakanta... ^_^ si crayon, di nagpakita ng kanyang taLent sa dr. jones... sayang! si bugs? Lufet kumanta... may hidden taLent... ayos! & cyempre pang finaLe kami ni ate kim, 100 pa ang score... happy taLga... sabay uwi na kasi gabi na at medyo maLayo pa ang aming fuLL house... =) di na namin naintay ang mga tao sa nasiraan na tseko (si rhoy at si mamuLloyd)... pero astig din siLa kasama... si rhoy, na waLang ginawa kundi barahin ako at inisin... si mamuLloyd na maLakas kumain at medyo demanding sa iced tea... may pagka-mushy din pag dating sa movies at mahiLig sa picture (dami nga namin pic together sa phone ni ate kim, sabi nga ni ate parang akin ung phone ksi puro pic ko)... hehe =) si geLo naman, ngbigay ng medyo maLungkot na speech nung Lunch........................................................... pero to sum it aLL up,,, sobrang saya!!! the best, and unforgetabLe... sana may showbiz gmick part2 - archie, tito boy, tito vic, ate kris, pioLo, dao & raymark... miss u guys! kita kits soon... wabyu aLL... =)

P.S - wish ko sana sa susunod umamin yung gusto kong umamin,,, nakaka-disappoint kasi diba ate kim???... grrr!!!

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"i reaLLy don't know what to say... can i just sit here in the corner & wait 'tiL the pieces are back together again? can i just have a moment of peace? a moment where i can rest & stop thinking? a moment where aLL these things are just dream? 'coz right now,,, im reaLLy tired..."

the heLL ! ! !

i hate this day!

i got coLds & cough... & im not feeLing weLL since morning...

next, im cramming for my web site (heLL! its not yet done!)

and worst! can't make it here at home 'coz our computer sucks!

and now, at this very moment... i cant breathe because of my coLds...

LastLy, i haven't got my bow & arrow yet... & that makes it worst!

~crap~

"oh weLL, happy apriL fooL's day everyone..."

mine vanya araneL. . .

i weg na an fofrin ar i winin na gwadron...

movie marathon. . .

we got one week break from schooL... after that, pasukan na uLit... worst thing is, maLapit na finaLs... sad but true! honestLy, boring ang one week ko... waLang gmick, waLang outing, not even window shopping... =( why? first, one of my reLatives died... tapos waLa nmn siLa mama kaya waLa tLga, waLa pang papeL pang gastos (ksi nga waLang pasok)... hehehe but then, Looking at the brighter side of our house... ok Lang din ksi nakabawi ako sa tuLog tpos daming food... hahaha =)

weLL, you must be wondering why movie marathon ang titLe nito... here's the reaL story... during the past few days, nag movie marathon ako... what eLse - Lord of The Rings... hahaha =) from feLLowship, to the two towers, to the return of the king... & aLL those times, i'LL teLL you... yummy taLsga si LegoLas... ~wink ^_^~ weLL, i've Learned aLot bout toLkien, sayang pinanganak syang mas maaga, it wouLd reaLLy be a pLeasure kung nameet ko sya... think about it, he made a story Like that (gumawa sya ng sariLi nyang mundo)... ayt? weird... tapos, i've come to reaLize... i wanna be an archer... (things added to my wish List: bow & arrow) hehe pra compatibLe kmi... & im studying eLvish Language, nice noh?! i got curious with that Language, my cousin toLd me that it was invented by toLkien himseLf... nweys, to peopLe who are LOTR fanatics, my cousin aLso toLd me na may extended dvd daw ang LOTR, ksi if u were to read the books, sobrang kuLang ung movie, (heLL, every movie is... ksi nmn kung bubuuin mo boring na & msyado mhaba, ayt?) so un, sa extended dvd daw nandun ung mga kuLang... nandun din ung Love story ni LegoLas & ni krystLe... hahaha

anyone who dares to contradict me,,, wag na! bsta, something bad wiLL happen to you... hahaha =) peace out... so much for this bLah bLah, its me "owner_bitch" signing out...

a prayer. . .

"God... bLess the man i Love that he may find aLL the happiness in this worLd...

as aLways. . .

im sooo sLeepy!!!

Lagi nLng kuLang sa tuLog. . .

bad trip!

ALiVE. . .

time goes sLowLy now in my Life

fear no more

a word i’m not sure

searching for your souL

the strength to stand aLone

the power of not knowing

and Letting go

i guess i found my way

it's simpLe when it’s right

feeLing Lucky just to be here tonight

and happy just to be me. . . and be ALiVE

Love in and out in my, in my heart

and though Life can be strange

i can’t be afraid

searching for your souL

the strength to stand aLone

the power of not knowing

and Letting go

i guess i found my way

it's simpLe when it’s right

feeLing Lucky just to be here tonight

and happy just to be me. . . and be ALiVE

TRY TO UNDERSTAND

we can't be together forever, because forever doesn't exist. . .

there's a waLL that our eyes couldn't see. . .

a waLL that we know for a fact wouLd never break. . .

a waLL that hoLds our fate. . .

i have seen the suffering that LoneLiness can cause. . .

and i have feLt the same before. . .

so be patient and be contented. . .

because Lord wiLL sureLy give you the one you're Looking for. . .

now i ask. . .

wouLd you stiLL be there tomorrow?

now that you know these things, wouLd you stiLL stay?

WiSHiNG YOU WERE SOMEHOW HERE AGAiN

you were once my one companion

you were aLL that mattered

you were once a friend and father

then my worLd was shattered

wishing you were somehow here again

wishing you were somehow near

sometimes it seemed if i just dreamed

somehow you would be here

wishing i could hear your voice again

knowing that i never would

dreaming of you won't heLp me to do

aLL that you dreamed i couLd

passing beLLs and scuLpted angeLs

coLd and monumentaL

seem for you the wrong companions

you were warm and gentLe

too many years, fighting back tears

why can't the past just die

wishing you were somehow here again

knowing we must say goodbye

try to forgive, teach me to Live

give me the strength to try

no more memories

no more siLent tears

no more gazing across the wasted years

heLp me say goodbye

*** Love this song (from the phantom of the opera). . .

LEAVE ME ALONE

kung ang haLaman nga tumutubo at ang hayop LumaLaki, tao pa kaya… Lahat nagbabago dahiL umikot ang mundo!

kung nagbago man ako, waLa na kayong magagawa… im not asking anyone to Love me nor to Like me… if you don't Like me, i don’t care! im not born to pLease everybody!

Live your Life and i Live mine, and that's good enough… so accept me for who i am or i'll kick your fucking ass!!! hehehe wag na kasi makiaLam, para masaya Lahat…

kung gaLit ka sakin or you have any probLems with me, sabihin mo… di naman ako kumakain ng tao o pumapatay eh… and don't worry i'll take it objectiveLy… hehehe =) just don't taLk behind my back, get it?

im a princess in my own worLd. . .

i don't care what you think about me, aLL that matters is that i Live my Life...

caLL me crazy, caLL me Lazy, caLL me bitch, caLL me anything you want, and i don't give a damn!

i don't have so much regrets 'coz i Live my Life my own way... i decide for myseLf and i take the consequences aLone...

i know i don't deserve much on this worLd 'coz i've wasted aLot aLready... but hey! chances are for free and i can have another one anytime... just give me time and i can prove to you - to everyone that chances given to me are worth it...

as i grow up, i Learn to understand the worLd... it's not fair and it's not unfair, it's just simpLy your perception that makes it unbeLievabLe... beauty is aLways in the eyes of the behoLder...

i don't have much to offer... i don't have money to buy everything, im not a genius that can invent erxtraordinary things... but im just simpLy... me...

before i die, i promise to pay back those peopLe i owe... and those who owe me...

i am sometimes a pain in the ass and a headache, but that's why they Love me... they Love me for who i am and what i am...

LastLy, i take one step at a time... i fight for what i know is right and for what i want, because onLy then i can teLL my seLf that i won the fight even if i Lost it in the eyes of other peopLe...

weird huh? but that's it and so be it!

the Ds...

DOs
~ do,,, mind your own business...
~ do,,, Love me for who i am...
~ do,,, anything you want, i don't care...
~ do,,, give me freedom
~ do,,, Let me cry whenever i want...

DON'Ts
~ don't,,, ever dare to piss me, i might kiLL you...
~ don't,,, judge me! i am who i am & what you see is what i reaLLy am... so take it or Leave it!
~ don't,,, pLay with my feeLings 'coz it's highLy expensive...
~ don't,,, expect me to be someone that wiLL fit your standard...
~ don't,,, sit on my throne, 'coz its made just for me...

THiNK OF ME. . .

think of me

think of me fondLy when we've said goodbye

remember me, once in a whiLe

pLease promise me you'LL try

when you find that once again

you Long to take your heart back and be free

if you ever find a moment

spare a thought for me

we never said our Love was evergreen

or as unchanging as the sea

but if you can stiLL remember

stop and think of me

think of aLL the things we've shared and seen

don't think about the thing which might have been

think of me

think of me waking siLent and resigned

imagine me

trying to hard to put you from my mind

recaLL those days look back on aLL those times

think of the things we'LL never do

there wiLL never be a day

when i won't think of you

we never said our Love was evergreen

or as unchanging as the sea

but pLease promise me

that sometimes you wiLL think of me