this is my worLd. . . . . you just Live in it!

NOW iN BUSiNESS!!!

2009-08-18T10:59:00.001+08:00

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you can emaiL me at naiLsLikeappLe@gmail.com

or you can send me a message in my FB and/or FS account!...

you can aLso visit my website at http://nailslikeapple.blogspot.com/

Long Beach...

2009-08-15T19:52:00.001+08:00

i know this may sound Like a cliché... but this is true... &&& this is what i reaLLy feeL...

i uber uber uber MiSS Long Beach!!!... as in...

soooo, to reLieve my home-sickness... im gonna share some stuffs/peopLe that i miss about/on LB!...

-> my mom & dad!... uber miss them!!! no expLanations needed! i just miss them... wanna hug my mommy!... =(

-> my bestfriend - bech/bechay/bakLa... i miss taLking to her... i miss how we make fun of my sister's sLow-ness... i miss her cappuccino!... i miss going to her house & chiLL, & raiding their kitchen for food... i miss caLLing her & texting her... i miss her texts, especiaLLy when she's drunk ("u know i Love u right?")... i miss her smeLL,,, yeah! she smeLLs!... oh & her room too, i miss her messy room! hahaha i aLso miss her mom!... the way she caLLs us "impakta"... i miss hearing her introduce us to peopLe as her adopted daughters!... & soooo soooo much more...

-> i miss siopao!... oh! the fights!,,, the unending fights!... (THAT i ALWAYS WiN) hahaha his ugLy-smeLLy-dirty car that Loves me!!!! i miss sLapping his forehead!... i miss seeing him eat (he eats aLOT)!!!... & eating with him... oh! his phone & the game that i aLways pLay on his phone!... i miss teasing him!... hahaha &&& i miss his uber uber baho smeLL!!!... =P

-> i miss AT&T... the unLimited txt!... the roLLover minutes!... the free caLLs for same subscribers!... oh! i miss those!

-> i miss my Labs!... i remember her starting a petition when i was hibernating!... i miss our "kabakLaan moments"... no duLL moments with her, that's for sure!... Laughing with her & just taLking about whatever!... hehehe oh!... taLking about her LoveLife too!... i totaLLy miss that!... haha her emo-ness shows when it comes to taLking about her LoveLife... =D

-> i miss the china-town peopLe - pinesee!... i miss the knott's-scarry-farm peopLe!... i miss the caferteria peopLe!... i miss the big bear fambam!... i miss the D-bLdg & E-bLdg peopLe!... i miss my RN stud-buds!... (you guys know who u are!...) i miss my FB penpaLs!... i reaLLy do miss you guys.... aLL of u... hanging out with u & just Laughing... for my girLfriends - i miss checking out guys with u! hahaha for my guyfriends - i miss seeing u checking out girLs & then Laugh!... oh!... i wiLL for sure miss going to chinatown with u guys... i wiLL miss going to knott's-scarry farm & eat funneL cake with u... i wiLL miss our big bear trip!... i wiLL miss our cafeteria, E-bLdg, & D-bLdg!... i wiLL miss our emaiLs & messages in FB/MS even if we just saw each other...

-> i miss our chapeL at LB!... my church mates & friends... the CVS near it & the jack-in-the-box in front it... hehehe

-> i miss yogurt Land!... tea station!... guppy's!... CPK (veLvet cake!!!)... boiLing crab!... redondo beach!... naiL suppLy costco!... disneyLand!... shamu & sea worLd!... =( &&& many many more!!!...

-> i miss the beach... the view!... the maLLs!... the freeway!... the "pedestrians-have-the-right-of-way" ruLe!... i miss the weather!... i miss our bathroom!...

for short,,, i miss Long Beach & everything & everyone on/in it!... hehehe >_< but, im aLready here... & we cannot turn back time... so, make the most out of it... & that's what we (my sister & i) have been doing... it's hard, but i think we're getting used to it... for now, Let me miss aLL of u!... hehehe

WHY-ness???

2009-07-29T21:21:00.002+08:00

*** first, i must admit... i've been too Lazy to write... =( aLthough there's too much to teLL!... &&& my "project" is stiLL on hoLd... (hopefuLLy it won't be on hoLd FOREVER!!!)

nyhoo, im writing as a quick update...

1. its been 1 month & 25 days to be exact since im back here in the PhiLippines... i had my driver's License renewed aLready, but stiLL not driving.. hehe im on a HUGE food trip!.. (meaning, im trying to eat everything that i missed during my 5-year absence... hehehe) my sister & i have been doing a daiLy adventure, since we're by ourseLves... & by adventure, i mean FOOD adventure... hahaha we aLways say that we'LL bring our camera so we can take pictures, but we aLways forget... so no pics here...

2. i've been on search for REDBULL!!! &&& today!!!.... i found it!!! yaaaaayyyyy!!! uber uber HAPPY!!! =D it came in with a different packaging though... & im not sure if it tastes the same... im kinda scared to open it & taste it coz it may not be the same... but i wiLL drink it, proLy tomorrow!... so we'LL see... ^_^ but uber happy! hehehehe

3. i've aLso been on search for a substitute... yes! not a repLacement, coz SaLLy Hansen is irrepLaceabLe... ehehehe so yeah, searching for a substitute for my SH coLLection.. i've seen quite a Lot, they're ok.. but not totaLLy... but today, i found an awesome naiL oiL (it heLps maintain your naiL coLor)!!! yaaaaayyyy! >_< &&& its scented! hehehe oh yeah, im thinking of starting a business with my LOVE of naiL poLish.. we'LL see how that one goes... for now, Let me show you my naiL art for the week! (i used::: SH insta-dry pronto purpLe base, SH insta-dry yeLLow, &&& SH Hard as NaiLs fuschia) yaaaayyy! ^_^

4. i am taking MedicaL TechnoLogy right now... so bye-bye nursing!... our scheduLe is kinda FUN (for me, of course)... coz we just have cLasses on Mondays, Wednesdays, & Thursdays... weLL, we were Late enroLLees, so cLasses were mostLy cLosed when we enroLLed... schooL wise, i think its going great... hahaha i have chemistry, phiLosophy with Logic, & gender deveLopment... hahahahaha =D i know right??? GENDER DEVELOPMENT!.. as i toLd my friend, maybe its good that im taking it so i can be sure of who/what i reaLLy am &&& so i can aLso heLp him decide WHAT he reaLLy is... hahaha =P... as for phiLosophy... oooohhh i have a Lot of stories here... one is the titLe of my bLog... "WHY-ness"... i mean, what the heck does that word mean??? i dunno!... where in the worLd did that word came from??? my teacher!... hahaha beLieve me, that's just one of the MANY things... there's aLso "pLease cLose the open", & he's regarding to the Lights... OMG!!! hahahahaha on the much funnier side (much na, funny-er pa!... nahahawa na ko sa teacher ko!... paktay!),,, we had our preLims Last two weeks ago... & as ive said on my FB stat::: "i was surprised at the resuLt of my phiLosophy's preLim exam... i didn't expect to get a good grade, not even pass... but i did! yaaayyy! ^_^ then my teacher asked, 'how did you do it?'... i answered, 'sir! sadyang normaL na piLosopo Lang po taLaga ako!... naturaL ba!' hahahahaha =D"

5. i miss LB!... i do! i reaLLy reaLLy do!... i miss my mommy & daddy berry berry much!... =( &&& everyone too!... (i wouLd name names but then, if i miss someone's name i might get in troubLe... ) but yeah, you know who you are guys! i miss u aLL... but i must say a speciaL mention to::: bechay, siopao, & Labs!... ehehehe ^_^

-- LastLy... a Lot of things changed when we Left pinas... & now that we're back, i think we're stiLL deaLing & coping with those changes... there's the MAT (THAT is another story... its quite Long & i don't wanna make this bLog too Long... so proLy another time, iLL rant & vent about it)... the prices of things!... the peopLe... some makes me sad, but i know it wiLL pass... so yeah, watch out for the MAT bLog... hahahaha

*** ok.. that's it!... im outs!... promise!, iLL write soon!... ^_^

aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!...

2009-06-09T09:32:00.000+08:00

i am bLogging because im kinda pissed... actuaLLy not pissed... more Like frustrated... naiinis ako!!! i wanna scream & yeLL out Loud... i wanna cry too, weLL, im actuaLLy crying aLready... i wanna punch & throw stuffs!... aaaaaaaarrrrrrgggghhhh!!!...

*tears*tears*tears*

naLoLoka na naman ako!!! & not the good way kind of Loka... :( :( :(

*sigh*

i don't know what to do... i don't know.....

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im stiLL having a hard time with the time difference...

2009-06-05T17:42:00.000+08:00

i can now say, that im haLfway done with the jetLag thing... proLy due to the fact that i sLeep whenever & wherever... haha aLthough, it was hard at first coz i have to controL & stop myseLf from faLLing asLeep during the day... >_<

OMG!!! since i got back Last wednesday... i've been eating a Lot!!! Like reaLLy... A LOT!!! im even surprised myseLf!!! my sister too! &&& im aLways hungry... especiaLLy at breakfast...

im happy that im back... & that i get to see my Loved ones & reLatives, especiaLLy my two LoLo!!! but at the same time, im sad... i miss my mom & dad... i miss my bech... i miss LB!!! & my friends... i miss our bathroom too! =* oh! & i miss my ring... i feeL weird without it... i've been unconsciousLy (many times a day), fixing my index finger as if there's a ring on it... not reaLLy fixing my index finger, as if it can be repositioned or something.. its more Like, i touch it to fix the ring, onLy there's no ring on it right now... its ok though, i know i Left it to someone who'LL take care of it! >_< & op kors, i miss that someone too! hehe =*

then, i found out there's a godiva cheesecake at cheesecake factory... i FOUND OUT JUST WHEN i GOT BACK!!! aaarrrrggghhh!!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!! toLd dye dye & dadeee, but they're soooo MEAN they won't send me even a sLice!!! hmmmpppfff!

just thought id share this... i Left a Lot of my cLothes just so i can bring my entire naiL poLish coLLection! hahahaha =D

oh & since i got back, ive been going on YM a Lot... &&& im on for the whoLe day... even when we go out, iLL just Leave it on untiL my Laptop sLeeps on its own... aLthough, im usuaLLy on invisibLe mode! hahaha

a Lot were surprised with the news of us coming back & being here... hehe i dunno! haven't seen my friends yet, but wiLL soon...

oooohhh &&& i MiGHT go to MOA tonight with my cousins... hehe first time!!! =P

BOMB

2009-06-04T00:01:00.000+08:00

--> ok!... so here it is...

im back home... here in pinas... just got here today, around Lunch time...

ish raining but ish hot... oohhh &&& im kinda scared to drive! hahaha stiLL, Lots of things to settLe... ok then, gotta sLeep! i feeL Like im a vampire here! haha

ps:::

i miss mommy & daddy... & my bech, & siopao too! & eberione there... good thing i have godiva! hahaha =P

where's the 5, peopLe? where's the 5?

2009-05-26T15:23:00.000+08:00

i recentLy put that as my status shoutout at FB & peopLe thought that im taLking about peopLe... Like im Looking for 5 peopLe... but no! im not... just the 5... ahaha i know it sounds weird & nonsense... but here goes the story...

for the past week.. i've been Looking for a cute, comfortabLe, affordabLe, & worth it sandaLs/sLippers... i know that cathy jean & payLess do have my size... & sometimes, as in SOMETiMES, when i get Lucky... some pLaces too... but this past week... OMG! i've went to aLL the shoe store aLready at Lakewood maLL, & meyn! NONE! see, i've had my frustrations on my feet a few times... not that its onLy smaLL but my toe naiLs are smaLL too... so its hard to put naiL poLish on!... aLL the shoe store i went to, their smaLLest size is 5.5 or sometimes 6... so i tried asking for the kids' size, & their biggest is 4... so my question is, where is the 5, peopLe??? what happened to the 5??? it's my favorite number as weLL!!!!... so frustrating!!! so, i went to payLess as my Last resort, coz i know they rareLy have great stuffs on size 5... & to my disappointment, they don't have any good stuffs.. so i ended up not having my dreams sandaLs/sLippers!... =(

on the other hand, we just had a smaLL gathering for my sister's bday... i had a great time! it was nice to have a party for her, coz usuaLLy she doesn't Like having a party for her bday... it was a great night with great peopLe... pLus, i got to taLk to this one person after,,, hmmm,,, i dunno... months? hehe good deed! *cLap*cLap* oh & finaLLy, heard the "i hate you"! hahaha i know its not a good thing for most peopLe, but beLieve me... it totaLLy made me feeL better! & for me, it is a good thing!... hahaha weird!

oh weLL, very busy week coming ahead... pLus, Lots of things to do... on top of the List: make bech cry! haha make it sink in for her & for me as weLL!... oh & mani/pedi! haha squeeze everything!... hehe

WHAT iS YOUR FEAR???

2009-05-23T14:54:00.000+08:00

"what is your fear?"

i usuaLLy see that question on surveys on FB/MS/FS... & i usuaLLy answer, "being aLone, or having no one around me"... but Last night, since i couLdn't sLeep... i had some time to think... & this was one of the things that came into my mind... this question... & Last night, i found my answer...

"what is your fear?"

--- yes, i fear being aLone &/or having no one around me... but thinking about it, even if i am physicaLLy aLone, i am not reaLLy aLone-aLone... He wiLL aLways be with me... no matter what... no matter where... no matter when... He wiLL take care of me... that said, i wiLL never be aLone!... so what is my fear? my fear is being forgotten... having no one remember me... that is my fear... i've been in a Lot of situations where i saw peopLe move on... where i Left a pLace, & that pLace grew... it changed... & the peopLe changed... i know that change is inevitabLe... but it scares me to even think that peopLe forget me... i DON'T WANT TO BE FORGOTTEN!!! i may have Lost communication to some peopLe that became a part of my Life... but i remember aLL of you!... so, i don't wanna be forgotten!... & this scares me,,, because another chapter of my Life is about to unfoLd...

--- i don't want you to forget me... if you (READER) think that im being conceited, arrogant, egotisticaL, or whatever... then you have a probLem... go think wiseLy!...

--- i don't want you to forget me... even if the onLy thing that couLd remind you of me is the part of me being mean to you, or being a b*tch to you... that's ok, at Least you remember me...

--- i don't want you to forget me...

ps::: i feeL Like bLogging every night... hahahaha WORD!...

because i can't sLeep...

2009-05-22T15:25:00.000+08:00

i can't sLeep... &&& i need to sLeep coz i have to wake up earLy tomorrow... but eh, i can't sLeep... i feeL Like im running out of time...

it's finaL... 100% happening...

Lots of things to do... Lots of things to settLe... & i don't think i have much time...

"His wiLL be done."

SO FAR...

2009-05-21T13:06:00.000+08:00

WARNiNG::: no train of thought whatsoever... fuLL of grammaticaL errors... no topic sentence... in short,,, maguLo to! >_<

START --> my bech (bestfriend) brought me to a naiL suppLy store, kinda Like a mini costco for naiL stuffs,,, &&& it was Like being in a candy store = AWESOME!... boiLing crab is deLishyoso!... im aLways eating & aLways hungry,,, Like every 2 hours!... i haven't seen angeLs & demons yet,,, but i SOOOOO want to watch it right now!... Last May 17, around 8:39 PM - there was a 5.1 earthquake!... it was reaLLy scary,,, there was a JOLT! Like a JOLT JOLT!!! =/... that same night, what i did was sincere... op kors, i care!... there was another earthquake yesterday, the 19th,,, i didn't feeL it, but my dad did, & report said it was 4.1... i feeL Like any moment, there's gonna be another earthquake,,, how scary!!!... i might be running out of time =(... i wanna taLk & say sorry, but i don't know how to... i'm stiLL so addicted to naiL poLish!... i discovered a bLog about kikay stuffs --- check it out girLfriends! (http://www.xsparkage.com/)... my sister's bday is coming,,, i wanna go to disneyLand!!!... i finaLLy went shopping Last monday after soooo many months! haha... picnic on memoriaL monday,,, must Look cute! heehee... panahon na ng mangga!!! weeeeee.... it's getting hotter in here,,, must wear sunbLock!!!... i never got to start my "project",,, what a Lazy person! =P... right now, my naiLs are pink! ^_^... sometimes i hate my feet coz they're smaLL, it's hard to Look for shoes,,, pLus my toe naiLs are smaLL too & its sooo hard to put naiL poLish on!... i need to find & buy a good pair of sLippers/sandaLs... shawn johnson won DWTS!!! hehe i voted for her!!! aLthough, giLLes marini is HOT!!!... Grey's Anatomy's season finaLe = heart-stopping! breath-taking! what wiLL happen??? i can't wait!!!... Gossip GirL season finaLe = *sigh* too much kiLig!!! where oh where can i find my own Chuck Bass?!? hehehe >_<... if,,, im 100% sure about what wiLL happen to me,,, do you stiLL wanna know?... congratuLations to those who pass 2nd semester & 1st semester of the program!... i want a ray-ban wayfarer sungLasses! oh Santa, i've been good! though i don't ceLebrate xmas, you can just give it to me now! haha >_<... i have a reason for the things i did... ooohhh! i aLso want a monokini swimsuit! haha... i staLk you sometimes, so i can see that you're doing great! which is great!!!... we need new designs for indigo... i wanna go to a Library & borrow books... i reaLLy think that my sister needs to Learn how to drive!!! hahaha... i stiLL have a Lot of windang moments!!!... there's a short wait for SchindLer's List at netfLix,,, & i can't wait anymore... i think Adam Lambert shouLd have won american idoL!... i haven't had red buLL for Like 3 months now,,, cLap! cLap!... i had a weird/funny dream the other night about my HS cLassmates & my eLementary crush,,, hahaha... & now, i shaLL end this... weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee >_<

i CANNOT BELiEVE WHAT i JUST FOUND OUT!!!...

2009-04-30T15:17:00.000+08:00

sorry! but i just have to Let this out (rant/vent/scream/yeLL) before i sLeep... so i can sLeep peacefuLLy!...

i CANNOT BELiEVE WHAT i JUST FOUND OUT!!!...

ok maybe im at fauLt at some part... but DUDE!!! as far as i know... i made myseLf perfectLy cLear about our FRiENDSHiP since the very beginning! GOSH!!! im speechLess! because i treated you as a friend... a good friend! i even toLd you stuffs! & here i am, ALL THiS FREAKiN' TiMe, thinking that we ARE JUST FRiENDS!!! but u gave a different meaning to everything...

&&& now, im the bad girL!... ako yung masama kasi i misLead you... susme!!! ewan ko!!!

"chocoLate is said to contain phenyLethyLamine, the same chemicaL your brain produces when you faLL in Love.. magchocoLate na Lang tayo,,, hindi pa masakit sa dibdib!!.."

--> yeah! chocoLate na Lang taLaga... hindi pa maguLo!!!

*** right now... i wanna go to a target shooting range... to bLow off some steam! haha ***

MY "TO DO" LiST...

2009-04-23T15:21:00.000+08:00

i want to do Lots of things... especiaLLy right now that im not that busy... but sometimes (or most of the time),,, i get Lazy... so, im making a List... i don't know if this wiLL heLp... but who knows!!!... &&& anyone who's up for the things i wanna do, hit me up... maybe we can do it together... motivate each other... hehe

im caLLing this MY "TO DO" LiST... no definite time frame... no pressure, coz i don't Like pressure... but hopefuLLy i get to do them soon... Like SOON SOON... not my kinda SOON... coz my kinda SOON is weird! haha

*** these are subject to change without prior notice ***

1. START MY PROJECT - it's been postponed & deLayed for aLmost two weeks now... *sigh*

2. EXERCiSE - work out those six packs & do some cardio... haha in my dreams! LiteraLLy, they're onLy in my dreams... my sister & i wiLL aLways taLk about our exercise routine (when we'LL do it, where we'LL do it...),,, but we aLways end up just taLking about it... haha aLthough, our bestfriend said it's aLready a progress that we're taLking about it!... hahaha

3. RE-READ 'ANGELS & DEMONS' - before the movie comes out!

4. GO SKYDiViNG/BUNGEE JUMPiNG/CLiFF DiViNG - i guess anything risky but fun!!! something that wiLL give me the "rush"... i wanna try it!

5. MAKE A MUSiC ViDEO WiTH MY BECH-ES - yes! we've been pLanning on this for some time now... &&& we're thinking of doing SingLe Ladies by Beyonce... hahaha

6. GAiN WEiGHT - im trying!!! reaLLy... =P

7. FiX MY CLOSET - im not reaLLy sure when THiS wiLL happen... hahaha

8. LEARN HOW TO COOK - hopefuLLy it's not too Late... &&& hopefuLLy i Learn... that's the thing - iF i Learn!!!

9. PLANT A TREE - i've pLanted before, during grade schooL & high schooL... but not a tree... & they aLL died... so, maybe not just pLant a tree... --> GROW A TREE!

10. MEET GEORGE CLOONEY!!! - my dream!... hehehe

FYi::: there reaLLy is a course about "underwater basket weaving"... fascinating isn't it?! ^_^

ps::: more to come, im sure... i'LL get to it when my brain's working good... coz right now, im sLeepy... hehe so good night/good morning!

COLORFUL BEAUTiFUL THiNGS

2009-04-11T12:14:00.000+08:00

i have a thing for naiL poLish right now... it's my current addiction...

Last saturday, i went with my dad to CVS to get some stuffs... i know that for sure i'm gonna get a new naiL poLish... so i went to the naiL poLish section... OMG!!! they have good seLection!!! they have a Lot of SH brand too! i think i stood there for Like 30 minutes trying to figure out what coLor to get... & i think i wouLd have stood there Longer, but my dad caLLed me... *sigh* & he was compLaining how Long it took me to choose... then today, i went to waLmart... & again, i got Lost in the naiL poLish aisLe...

its bad, bad, bad... knowing that i have enough naiL poLish aLready... but then!!! standing in front of those coLorfuL beautifuL things... i was wishing i couLd pick one of each coLor!!! hahaha =D totaLLy!!! seriousLy!!!

hmmm... oh weLL... i guess that's my girLy side kicking in! hehe

PROJECT POSTPONED

2009-04-10T06:38:00.000+08:00

i said that today... i wiLL start my new project...

i had a Lazy moment earLier, but decided to pursue it...

i started my preparation at 1 PM...

then, when i was about 15 minutes away to reaLLy starting it...

i found out that our camera is somewhere not at home!

(*hint* ::: yes! my new project needs a camera...)

taLk about hoLd ups... hahaha

so, i guess it wiLL have to wait...

but!!! i wiLL stiLL do it... hehehe ^_^

NEW PROJECT

2009-04-08T12:54:00.000+08:00

i wiLL be working on a project... ^_^

personaL project that is...

it's new, because i've never done it before...

and hopefuLLy, i won't be Lazy & totaLLy pursue it...

im uber excited! aLso hoping it works out...

target start date/day::: thursday - 4/9...

cross fingers! >_<

COMiNG SOON!!! weeeeeee

... bLogging ...

2009-04-02T14:31:00.000+08:00

it's been a big and Long roLLer coaster ride for the past month... not that i hate roLLer coasters (but i do hate that one ride at knott's berry farm = ghost rider)... haha but i guess i can compare the things that's been going on with me to a roLLer coaster... mostLy though, it's Like the part of the ride where aLL the hoops & twists come... & honestLy, i don't think the ride's over yet...

so here i am, bLogging... at the night of apriL fooL's... hehe (i didn't get to pLay a prank to anyone today!) i can't beLieve it's aLready apriL... spring break's coming!!! yaaayy!!! &&& we're going to SF!!! wooohooo! i sooo need that! even though it's just for four days... stiLL, its something far from aLL these...

TV SERiES UPDATE::: im hooked to CSI Las Vegas right now... im trying to watch aLL seasons, starting from season 1... & yes, its one of the things that keeps me busy... hahaha im aLso watching DWTS! im sad because my handsome Dmitry got booted off (he is REALLY handsome!)... on the other hand, GiLLes is stiLL on... &&& he's HOT! uber hot! he's good too! >_<>

ok, enough with the TV series update... =P

i'm currentLy an anti-phone... & have been for the past two weeks, i beLieve... some of my friends even caLL it as a restraining order for my own phone... haha they're even petitioning that i Lift the restraining order... hahaha im touched! fLattered even... a shout out to those petitioning::: "don't worry you guys... i feeL that the restraining order wiLL be Lifted soon! haha"

i want to share this short conversation i had with a friend at FB... it was her response to my status... "... na ang chaLLenge pa dun on your part eh pano mo ieexpLain sa kaniLa yun, without going through aLL the emotionaL drama... pero in the end, yun nga, ikaw padin ang LaLabas na masama, nakasakit!" *sigh* enough said...

on the brighter side... i haven't had redbuLL for a month! haha! cLap cLap! hehe >_<

FOOD CRAViNGS::: frozen yogurt! oh & my sister introduced me to cupcakes... oh! they're soooo cute & sooo good too! haha funneL cake too! been craving for one... i know they're aLL junk foods... eh? they make me happy! hehe >_<

LastLy... i Love naiL poLish!!! if i couLd change the coLors of my naiLs everyday, that wiLL be great! but then it takes time... ooohhh but i Love coLors!!! so, my current thing = naiL poLish!!! im trying to buiLd an empire of naiL poLish! haha =D i mean, im trying to coLLect Lots of different coLors that i Like... saLLy hansen is a good brand... stiLL, checking out some stuffs... but yes, its my current thing... it takes my mind off of things... =)

MOOD::: as of right now... im anxious about some stuffs... sad about a certain thing... reLieved that i got something out... happy i received a 20 from my dad... in short = nawiwindang ako!!! =/

weLL... weLL... i guess that's it for now... ciao!

REDEMPTiON

2009-03-19T00:29:00.000+08:00

they say in Life...

hardships and triaLs wiLL come,,, mistakes wiLL happen,,, peopLe wiLL come and go,,, tears wiLL be shed,,, and broken hearts... weLL, it may heaL... but the scars wiLL remain...

i had a Lot of break downs for the past few months...

i made a wrong turn... i took a Lot of things for granted... i had doubts... i stumbLed & feLL so many times... &&& worst, i reLied on myseLf...

BUT...

these things made me who i am today... it made me reaLize things... it made me stronger in a way... it made me scared in another way... &&& the greatest BUT of it aLL - "BUT in spite of it aLL... He stiLL Loves me... He gave me a second chance... He didn't judge me... He took my hand, hugged me tight, & made me feeL that He forgives me..."

SO...

now & tomorrow & the day after tomorrow & the next next day & the day after that day &&& so on... i wiLL do my best to do His wiLL... i wiLL try harder to stay on the right road & not make another wrong turn... i wiLL never doubt Him again... i wiLL pick myseLf up from aLL these & move forward... &&& i wiLL NOT reLy on just myseLf ever again...

FOR...

those who are heLping me get through aLL these - THANK YOU...

those who stayed by my side - THANK YOU...

those who are quick to judge - THANK YOU...

those who do not understand - THANK YOU...

STiLL...

i say this to those who are quick to judge & to those who do not understand::: "i have sinned and made a Lot of mistakes... but it is not those things that defines me... nor wiLL it define who i wiLL become... but thank you for making me see the other side without even going there..."

--> im in the process of heaLing,,, of taking it aLL in,,, of pLanning,,, of coping,,, &&& of getting fat... ^_^ i may not be ok yet, but i wiLL be... i stiLL beLieve... i stiLL hope... at the end of the day... im stiLL ME!

*** i was inspired by the foLLowing quotes ***

MEREDiTH: "The early bird catches the worm; a stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we haven't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to 'seize the day'. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore, until we finally understand for ourselves like Benjamin Franklin meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping. And that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistake beats the hell out of never trying."

ATE KiM: "the moment we rely on ourselves completely, is the moment we lose our faith."

SOMEONE: "After falling, you don't have to crawl. You can stand up and start walking again..."

ANONYMOUS: "The important thing is not to be bitter over life's difficulties. We should Learn to Let go of the past and recognize that everyday won't be sunny, and when we find ourselves lost in darkness and despair, remember - it's only in the black of the night that we can see the stars, and those stars will lead us back home. So, we should not be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble, to fall. Because most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing things that scare us the most."

SOMEONE ANONYMOUS: "Don't shield yourself from pain, never fear pain either. Face whatever it is that comes your way. Don't be afraid to stumble and fall, to cry and get hurt. Dread not those helpless moments, when you can't even fight your tears back, and all you can do is stare at something and let time pass. You can only understand happiness after you've felt pain. Life is not fair, it never was, and it won't ever be. All we can do is to live it to the fullest."

i need morphine!

2009-03-12T08:06:00.000+08:00

ok... so i just need to Let this out...

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

NOW im mad!!! i am sooooo MAD!!! i am freakin' MAD!!!

pLus i am stiLL coping... coping with the stuffs happening...

i am grieving... i am in shock...

i am... i don't know... i wanna scream!

i wanna scream out Loud... but i can't...

my head is gonna expLode soon...

so i think i need a morphine... hahaha

im fine though... ehehehe ^_^

BUT wouLd it be too much to ask to CUT ME SOME SLACK?!?!

LiKE DEATH & TAXES... CHANGE is inevitabLe

2009-03-09T13:21:00.000+08:00

--- i beLieve im doing the best i couLd,,, given the current situation...

--- im uber tired... from a Lot of things...

--- you'LL thank me tomorrow...

--- im not suicidaL... even if i say so... i mean, i don't see myseLf kiLLing myseLf... coz #1, that's a sin! &&& #2, im sooo great it wiLL be a waste to kiLL me! hahaha

--- i think that once they aLL know... it WiLL kick in... it WiLL become more reaL... &&& it WiLL make ME feeL things... in which, i think, im not ready yet... not ready to feeL things... (you know... coz i Like the feeLing of not being abLe to feeL coz then it feeLs great not feeLing anything... yeah...)

--- im thinking of going to disneyLand &&& sea worLd before the month of May comes... just because...

--- "in Life, onLy one thing is certain, apart from death and taxes. no matter how hard you try, no matter how good your intentions, you are going to make mistakes. you're going to hurt peopLe. you're going to get hurt. and if you ever want to recover... there's reaLLy onLy one thing you can say..." {by Meredith}

--- change is coming... as my sister said - "i have news that when i teLL you, i want you to wet your pants in shock! bwahaha"

ps::: im Liking twitter... you guys shouLd create one & foLLow me... staLk me... hunt me.. shadow me... whatever! hahaha

i got tagged!!!

2009-03-01T12:32:00.000+08:00

*** 25 RANDOM THiNGS ABOUT ME ***

1. -- i am dark & twisted... and i Like it... being dark & twisted...

2. -- i have Lesbian/gay tendencies...

3. -- i had an open heart surgery!

4. -- im a texter... fast texter! hehe

5. -- this is my favorite number!

6. -- i weigh Less than 100 lbs.

7. -- i easiLy get bored with my hair styLe... so, i get a hair cut whenever & however i feeL Like it... =D

8. -- im a certified chocohoLic! =D

9. -- im broke! =/

10. -- i bite! ^_^

11. -- im not good with "taLks"... unLess im confronting someone in a bad way, Like a fight-fight... =P

12. -- i don't cook... =P

13. -- vegetabLes can kiLL me... so i think...

14. -- i share a bed with my sister.. = }

15. -- im a junkie for redbuLL & coffee!

16. -- in highschooL::: my senior prom date was a freshman... =P

17. -- i have a thing for coLored pens... hehe

18. -- i wanna own a vespa!

19. -- im nearsighted...

20. -- i wanna ride a heLicopter...

21. -- i teLL peopLe i'm gonna fart before i actuaLLy fart... hahaha

22. -- im good in hiding... coz i hide aLot... for weird reasons... =P

23. -- im a heart breaker! hahaha

24. -- most often, i Like the feeLing of not being abLe to feeL... because then, im not feeLing anything at aLL... >_<

25. -- i want to become a surgeon... one of the best surgeons... (aim high, sky high!) haha

"i got tagged by my sister at facebook... but im not much of a facebook person anymore... so im writing it here... &&& im tagging peopLe as weLL! whoever gets tagged shouLd answer!!! =P or eLse!!!... hahaha you can cLick on "comment" after this post & write yours there... (having troubLe??? too bad, so sad! =P haha juz keeding! caLL me/txt me/emaiL me so i can heLp you...) oh! & don't forget to put your name on it... or anything (ur code name, ur porn star name, our secret name), whatever... as Long as there's something i can distinguish you with... if you've done this aLready, then you can just paste your answers here... aLso, i don't have a myspace, so don't even think of answering it there... coz what's the point of tagging you if im not gonna see your answer? right??? haha

SO... im tagging the foLLowing peopLe... ^_^

--> hon_uno, my bech = LaLa, siopao, Labs = quennie, my-secret-crush = mr. J, aLpha, LoLo jay, nathanieL, dye, yetyet, marie, danieL, ate karessa, kuya O, &&& stacey...

ten-days-off

2009-02-20T11:42:00.000+08:00

surprisingLy, i have/had a ten-days-off on my 2nd semester on the nursing program... weird huh? but i do! & today is my 10th day... tomorrow im back to schooL & back to studying...

so, im concLuding my ten-days-off with a bLog...

why do peopLe aLways have to ask "how are you?" or "how you doing?"??? even in supermarkets! sometimes, i wanna ask them "do you reaLLy wanna know?"... but yeah, can't we just skip this part and just move on? coz Like me, i don't know how i am... aLthough i can go for fine... im fine.... im a fine person... i do fine! im fine! but then again, i don't know how i reaLLy am...

im starting to reaLize that nursing is not for me... & no, this is not because im faiLing... but because i don't see me there... its not me! coz i know me! im a bLack-and-white person... and nursing is definiteLy NOT bLack-and-white... its gray! nursing is gray! soooo gray! uber gray! Lots of gray area!!! but im not giving up nursing... YET... i mean, i got here... & dude! its hard work to be here... so im not giving up just yet... but my reasons have shifted & changed... stiLL, ima do what i can to finish what i've started... to get to what i reaLLy want...

my stuff toys coLLection is growing... & im Loooving it!!! i wanted to take a picture of them, but im too Lazy right now... maybe next time... &&& yes, they aLL have names... hahaha

LastLy, i stoLe this from my Labs - quennie, from her bLog... when i read it, i thought "buLL's-eye!" swak na swak! its Like a perfect definition of the current me... so here it is, induLge!

"Sometimes it's hard to keep it aLL together when things are happening at the same time. When everything seems to faLL out of pLace. Everything seems to go wrong. You Lose your grip. You Lose your nerve. You start to question your purpose. Your reason. Your worth. And before you know it, the damage has been done. FeeLings are hurt. ReLationships tainted... And worst of aLL, you Lost yourseLf in the process.........." --> my Labs = quennie

ALL ABOUT YESTERDAY...

2009-02-16T14:45:00.000+08:00

for starters: yesterday was V-Day for "together" peopLe... S.A.D for "aLone" peopLe... i don't reaLLy ceLebrate V-Day whether "together" or "aLone" i may be... but i get gifts from time to time... but we just don't reaLLy ceLebrate it... i'm not being a hater or whatever, basta! we just don't...

i'd Like to think that its juz another day... ordinary day... Like any other day... but with sooo much hearts around... too much that its actuaLLy rubbing off on me!

so here's the story:::

when i woke up yesterday... i opened a very tiny tiny box in my mind... put a person inside, Locked it & hid it at the very bottom... why? coz i know it wiLL heLp me make it through the day... period!

i spent most of yesterday with my girL friend... we did errands, heLped my sister get gLam & ate a Lot... we ate Lots! good food, especiaLLy chocoLates... it heLped us... haha

ima teLL you something... its our aLbertson's story... so we were doing errands for my friend's mom that we had to go to aLbertson's... MAN!!! when the store door opened, it was Like... i dunno! Lots of hearts, fLowers, sweet stuffs, reds & pinks! don't get me wrong though, i LOVE red... red is my fave coLor... but yesterday,,, it was different! aaaahhhh! my friend & i Looked at each other & Laughed... what a depressing store! =D

then we went to westminster to bring some stuffs to my friend's LoLa... when we were driving home, "singLe Ladies" by beyonce was pLaying on the radio that we had to caLL my sister for her to hear it too! haha (inside joke!)

then we got home... stiLL can't wrap my head around the things that happened... but it did happen! & once again, i was proven that the very tiny tiny box that i hid and Locked was useLess... ^_^

i got fLowers (AFTER WE'VE BEEN SO CLEAR ABOUT NOT GiViNG FLOWERS!!!)... =P

pLayed "pente"... i think its a weird game... or maybe that's because i don't know the objectives of the game! haha i kinda won though, after eye-ing someone! hahaha =D weLL, you gotta do what you gotta do!!!

then... i GOT AMBUSHED!!! ambushed by the peopLe i Love!!! totaLLy frustrating... but fun in the end! haha =D i even texted a friend for distraction, coz it was driving me crazy having the peopLe i Love whisper & taLk behind me... coz im used to me having secrets about them, not the other way around!

unwiLLingLy, i bLind foLded myseLf... threw a tantrum & even tried to get myseLf out of the bLind-foLding-thing by bargaining (&&& suprisingLy, my bargain didn't work!!!)... and then, got myseLf a surprise!

and that is... we went ice skating! i've never ice skated my entire Life... so it was a first! i feLL 2 and 1/2 times... got my knees bruised, & not just one knee... but BOTH knees!!! hahaha its ok though... i kinda Learned how to skate... now, im a pro! hahaha it was fun! had a great time!

then got home & found out everything about yesterday's pLan... the peopLe behind it & the aLibis around it! haha

--> before i went to bed yesterday... thoughts were fLooding my mind... as usuaL, they are thoughts that i can onLy think of... hehe but for now... i wiLL eat more chocoLates because it makes me feeL better!

DEATH iS iNEViTABLE

2009-02-10T11:00:00.000+08:00

i'm not scared of dying... i think...

coz i beLieve that death is peacefuL...

that death is inevitabLe...

when you faiL...

when you faiL something...

or when you become the faiLure...

when you Loose...

when you Loose something dear to you...

or when you Loose someone you Love...

a part of you die...

i wonder...

for aLL the things that i've faiLed...

for aLL the stuffs i've Let go of...

HOW MUCH DEATH THAT THAT CAUSED ME???

"NOT EVERYTHiNG iS ABOUT YOU!!!"

2009-02-07T13:52:00.000+08:00

"acute pain r/t psychoLogical and emotionaL agents AEB chest pain."

___fLat_Line_____________________________________________________________________________________________________________ . . .

gossip girL

2009-02-05T12:51:00.000+08:00

D: "it's over, isn't it?"

S: "we had to try..."

GG: "sometimes the onLy thing Left to do is wrap your arms around each other one Last time... and then just...............

Let go..."

MY bech-es!

2009-01-28T13:53:00.000+08:00

"they make me happy even during my breakdown moments & Low-Liest times..."

got some rest from crying...

2009-01-27T15:38:00.000+08:00

my mind is currentLy nearing shut off... finaLLy, i got some rest from crying... so im writing... because i have to Let this out... because i think i haven't said enough... &&& because i think writing wouLd heLp me... even a LiL bit at Least...

i knew from the very beginning that im not good with taLks or confrontations (unLess im confronting someone who did something bad to me, Like fighting confrontations...)... because most of the time, i never get to say the things i wanted to say... i'd end up crying & not be abLe to taLk...

so i'm Letting it aLL out here... i dunno if you'LL be abLe to read this... but who knows, maybe someday you'LL get to read it...

--> " i'm sorry... sorry for everything... sorry for hurting you... sorry for not being abLe to teLL you aLL this... sorry for shutting you out whenever i get paranoid... sorry for being seLfish... sorry for chickening out... i'm. reaLLy. sorry. for. everything...

my reason may be one-sided... but i hope you'd understand...

i'm not giving up... i'm stiLL hoping... that maybe one day, someday, things wouLd be better for us... that US couLd happen, even with this...

for now, you couLd hate me... i'd understand... you can be mad,,, coz normaL peopLe wouLd be mad... &&& i stiLL think, i don't deserve your gift... but thank you... & know that i Love you..."

today can't get any worse, can it?

2009-01-27T13:41:00.000+08:00

=( i couLd say that this day is one of the worst day i've had so far... =(

_>> so, i faiLed the 1st quiz of my 2nd semester... when i saw my grade, it's Like i have no chance to come back at aLL... i feeL Like crap! i feeL useLess! i feeL pathetic!

_>> then... i did something... something bad... i've hurt someone... actuaLLy, i've been hurting that someone for a whiLe now... then, i ended up hurting myseLf even more...

_>> my eyes are burning... i've been crying for a whiLe... it's Like i don't have eyes anymore... but it feeLs Like there are more tears coming... *sigh* i dunno when it wiLL stop... but i hope sooner...

_>> i think i need some saving... im suicidaL!!!

FiNALLY... SNOW!!!

2009-01-09T14:17:00.000+08:00

finaLLy... i got to see SNOW!!!

went on a trip with friends to Big Bear for 3 days & 2 nights...

awesome! uber fun!

memories:

--> chuck norris turned jack norris turned jack & jiLL... hahaha

--> Life insurance! cLassic!

--> reaL snow baLL fight!

--> cowboy express...

--> oooohhh taboo!

--> Lots of fart-moments coz of Laughing non-stop...

--> chismis!!!

--> sLeigh ride!!! =D

FiLL iT OUT FOR ME...

2009-01-02T12:12:00.000+08:00

WHAT WOULD YOU DO iF:

_>> i committed suicide:

_>> i said i Liked you:

_>> i caLLed you:

_>> i kissed you:

_>> i Lived next door to you:

_>> i started smoking:

_>> i stoLe something:

_>> i was hospitaLized:

_>> i ran away from home:

_>> i got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THiNK OF MY:

_>> personaLity:

_>> eyes:

_>> face:

_>> hair:

_>> cLothes

_>> mannerisms:

RANDOM QUESTiONS:

_>> who are you?

_>> are we friends?

_>> have we met yet?

_>> how have i affected you?

_>> what do you think of me so far?

_>> what's the fondest memory you have of me?

_>> how Long do you think we wiLL be friends or enemies?

_>> do you Love me?

_>> have i ever hurt you?

_>> wouLd you hug me?

_>> wouLd you kiss me?

_>> are we cLose?

_>> emotionaLLy, what stands out?

_>> do you wish i was cooLer?

_>> on a scaLe of 1-10, how nice am i?

_>> give me a nickname & expLain why you picked it:

_>> am i Love-abLe?

_>> how Long have you known me?

_>> describe me in one word:

_>> what was your first impression of me?

_>> do you stiLL think that way about me now?

_>> what do you think my weakness is?

_>> do you think i'LL get married?

_>> what about me makes you happy?

_>> what about me makes you sad?

_>> what reminds you of me?

_>> what's something you wouLd change about me?

_>> how weLL do you know me?

_>> ever wanted to teLL me something but couLdn't?

_>> do you think i wouLd kiLL someone?

_>> are you going to put this on your journaL and see what i say about you?

_>> wouLd you fLirt with me?

_>> wouLd you be my pen paL?

_>> wouLd you caLL if you had my number?

_>> do you think im cute at aLL?

_>> do you honestLy think im dorky?

_>> how do i know you?

_>> why are you fiLLing this out?

_>> are you tired yet?

YOU THiNK YOU KNOW ME:

_>> what's my middLe name?

_>> when's my birthday?

_>> what are you getting me for my birthday?

_>> what's my favorite coLor?

_>> name something random you know about me...

_>> i'm aLways...

_>> what's my favorite song?

_>> who's my best friend?

_>> what's my favorite word?

_>> who do you think is my favorite super hero?

"wait for me i'm aLmost ready when he meant LET GO..." -sara bareiLLes

2008-11-23T22:00:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: 30% = okay... 70% = ???

"have you ever feLt water just sitting at the edge of your eyes... you try berry hard not to Let it out, but its just there... & then, a LittLe bit Later, you Loose... not juz you Lost,,, but now, you can't stop it from faLLing down your face.. have you ever feLt that?"

--> don't say im emo... im juz asking... =P

"Lots of things happened in the past few days of my uber busy Life... good stuffs & some bad stuffs... so, it is reaLLy true - you can NEVER sLack off when your in the nursing program... coz if you do, bad stufss may happen & it wiLL bite your behind & it wiLL hurt! but that's not even the worst part yet... worst is,,, this "thing"... this "thing" that as much as possibLe, i don't want to taLk about.. but i know, sooner or Later it wiLL haunt me... this "thing" that makes me scarred... this "thing" that makes me think a Lot... &&& this "thing" makes water sit at the edge of my eyes..."

--> what wiLL happen if this "thing" happens... what if i...? what wouLd you...? wiLL you...?

"i've been Listening to this song since my sister introduced it to me... its berry deep! fave Line::: "wait for me i'm aLmost ready when he meant Let go..." *sigh* im scurred!"

--> i wiLL teLL you... soon... coz you deserve to know... juz be patient.. i wiLL teLL you... in my kind of soon soon...

"countdown wiLL start tomorrow... but im broke... im jobLess... which makes me sad... =/"

--> i need a job!

this is the most unnaturaL, unearthLy, freaky, strange, bizarre, surreaL, crazy, wacky feeLing!

2008-10-23T09:48:00.000+08:00

>>> i'm supposed to be studying right now but i can't... something's bothering me & i need to Let it out... i don't know who to taLk to, so i decided to bLog about it... &&& Let the whoLe worLd know! ha! what a smartee!!! hahaha

>>> see, i am ok!!! i am fine!!! the Nursing Program keeps me busy & i am fine!!! did i say im fine? yeah, im fine!!!!!!!!!!

untiL now... im stiLL ok though... im stiLL fine... ish juz that,,, i reaLized... "i miss you!"

hahahahahahahahahaha =D =D =D

>>> i dunno!

>>> i miss our friendship... our taLks... our conversations.. our "tawanan & kuLitan", our "chemistry"...

>>> u get me,,, i beLieve... &&& i get you,,, i think... in a weird, funny, hiLarious way... Like you know... sometimes when you're with a person or a friend... you may not taLk or say anything but you know that you both know what each other is thinking... then you Laugh! coz its hiLarious!

>>> i dunno!!! somehow, at this very moment, im wishing you'd caLL... but i know you won't & you wouLdn't.. because i chose this! & it is the right thing to do...

>>> it wiLL pass... this wiLL pass... fosho! i know it... been there, done that! a few breather wiLL do it... haha =D

~~~ oh FYi & for the record... i am sooooo NOT taLking about my two "best friends"... they are sooooo NOT this person!!! because even if they're the Last two peopLe on earth, i wouLdn't wish they'd caLL me. period. nuff said!

*** ooohhh!!! &&& happy birthday to me cuz = meLissa! Labshu!!! ^_^

MOViNG ON

2008-05-25T02:06:00.000+08:00

"this is the Last time i wiLL cry for you... because i can't do this anymore... because i am not that girL, & i don't wanna be that girL... because its unheaLthy... and because i wanna be a better person... and, so that next time we see each other, it wiLL be you who wiLL feeL crappy... JOKE! hehehe but yeah, this is it... im Letting go... im Letting go aLL my hopes, aLL my dreams, & aLL my day dreams with you... &&& im reaLLy gLad to see that you're doing great...

Let's aLL be happy... Life is too short to dweLL on sadness...

{totaLLy disconnected... random...} we shouLd aLL joing forces and not buy gas at those top Leading oiL companies (Like sheLL - which by the way had their reguLar gas at $4.19! watf??? aLso chevron, BP, exxon, & mobiL)... we can Lower gas prices if we act together hehe

LastLy,,, worLd peace meyn!!!"

ps::: now who wouLd be so kind as to treat me to Kabuki's tempura ice cream? hehehehe it couLd be your support gift for me! hehehe Let me know... ^_^

The End??? (pubLic version)

2008-03-16T06:30:00.000+08:00

The End???

2008-03-16T06:15:00.000+08:00

sabi ko kasi basahin mo yung suLat na ginawa ko para sayo... tapos pagka-basa mo, at kung gusto mo pa ko makausap... tawagan mo ko...

March 15, 2008 @ 11:38 am... tumawag ka... our conversation Lasted for 2:46:01...

naaLaLa ko ang unang sinabi mo sakin... natamaan ka ng sobra sa sinuLat ko na "gusto ko na pwede ko hawakan yung tenga mo kahit nasan ako... pero i guess, hindi pwede..." nagpatawa ka pa nga, na puputuLin mo yung isa mong tenga tapos ibibigay mo sakin...

sinagot mo yung suLat ko... at isusuLat ko dito Lahat ng natatandaan kong sinabi mo, dahiL sinabi mo Lang sakin... baka kasi dumating ang araw na makaLimutan mo mga sinabi mo...

sabi mo::: kung nagseseLos at nasasaktan ako, ikaw din... ayaw mo Lang sabihin kasi ayaw mo ng mag-isip ako ng kung ano... sabi mo rin you cherish the day that we had the chance na magkasama tayo... sabi mo din,,, kung maaari Lang na saLuhin mo ko bago pa ko bumagsak ng tuLuyan sa ground, sasaLuhin mo ko... na darating ka bago ko mahuLog... naiyak nga ako nung sabihin mo to eh... tapos tinanong mo ko kung nasaktan ako ng hindi ka Lumingon... OO! sobra... dahiL sa mga sandaLing yun,,, i was hoping & wishing na LiLingon ka... na i don't care kahit makita mo kong umiiyak, kasi kung Lumingon ka... at Least i have something to hoLd on to... pero hindi mo na maLaLaman to, dahiL hindi ka Lumingon... sabi mo din naiintindihan mo ko, na hindi ako seLfish for choosing this... dahiL aLam mong napapagod din ako... at sabi mo din, na kapag dumating ang araw na hindi ka Lang dumadaan & you're gonna stay... sasabihin mo sakin... isisigaw mo pa nga kahit aLam mong katabi mo Lang ako at naririnig kita, sabi mo isisigaw mo parin... dahiL ganun mo ako... ganun mo ako kamahaL... sabi mo din ok ka nung mga panahong hindi tayo nag-uusap pero Lagi mo pa rin ako naaaLaLa at iniisip kung ok ako o hindi... sabi mo din, you'LL aLways be here for me... sabi mo din, ita-try mong maging ok para maging ok ako... na since papasok na ko sa nursing program, ibigay ko ang Lahat ko para makaLimot at maging ok ako... na wag na kitang intindihin kahit na piLit kong sinasabi sayo na yun ang catch... na yo have to promise me you'LL be ok para maging ok ako... at sabi mo::: "i wanna say something i've been hoLding out since before... uhmmm... *sigh*... i Love you..."

aLam mo bang sa mga sandaLing sinabi mo sakin yun... gusto ko bawiin Lahat ng sinabi ko... gusto kong isumbong sayo yung taong umaaway sakin ngayon, yung taong sinasaktan ako ngayon... para awayin mo din siLa... gusto ko din sabihin sayo na i think i've faLLen for you... pero hindi ko nasabi... piniLi kong hindi sabihin... dahiL ito piniLi ko... ako ang may gusto nito so i have to be strong... oo! umiiyak ako kanina, pero i guess you won't know that... & you didn't know that... but i was & i stiLL am...

& in the end... we Let each other go...

sabi mo kasi, gagawin mo ang Lahat dahiL yun ang gusto ko... pero hindi ko naman taLaga gusto to... pero kasi, ito Lang ang aLam kong paraan para maka-move on tayong pareho... aaminin ko,,, ayoko sana... at sana pwede yung sana... pero hindi ko na pwedeng bawiin...

pano kung hindi dumating yung araw na makakabaLik ka, na hindi ka Lang dumadaan? pano kung hindi dumating yung araw na pwede mo ng isigaw sakin na you're here to stay? pano kung hindi ako maging ok? pano kung naiyak parin ako, hindi man gabi-gabi... pero naiyak pa rin ako dahiL dito? pano kung makita kita isang araw tapos ang saya saya mo na, at tingin ko ok ka na, maging ok kaya taLaga ako? o baka naman sinasabi ko Lang na magiging ok ako kung ok ka pero hindi taLaga, dahiL deep inside im stiLL hoping na masaya ka dahiL sakin... pano yun?

sana nga taLaga maintindihan mo ako baLang araw... na hindi ko ginusto to, hindi ko gusto na gawin to, na iwan ka... pero i think its the "RiGHT" thing to do... hindi ko aLam kung magiging ok ako sa desisyon kong to... hindi ko rin aLam kung magiging ok ang Lahat kapag ginawa ko to... sana tama ang naging desisyon ko... sana

so this is it... the end that i never thought wouLd even begin... and the beginning i never imagined wouLd happen,,, nor did i thought wouLd even exist... is this reaLLy the end? if so, i just want you to know that yes,,, i've faLLen for you... i've faLLen in Love with you...

Dear Lakay,,,

2008-03-13T06:57:00.000+08:00

pano kung ok na ko... magiging ok ka narin ba?

pano kung sabihin ko sayo ngayon na ok na ko... ok na ko na hanggang ganito na Lang...

kasi...

minsan nagseseLos ako,,, waLa naman akong karapatang magseLos...

madaLas nasasaktan ako,,, kahit hindi naman dapat...

i don't wanna be Like this! i don't wanna be THAT kind of girL... gusto ko Lang maging masaya... don't get wrong though... im very happy i met you... i don't regret anything... masaya ko pag nakakasama kita... masaya ako pag nakakausap kita... masaya ako pag nakikita kita... pero maLi eh! hindi tama... kasi may mahaL ka na... may pinangakuan ka na ng pagmamahaL mo... na kahit mawaLa ako, may sasaLo sayo... e sakin, nagkabaLi-baLi na buto ko... waLa pa ring sumasaLo... hindi naman pwede na ganito naLang ako Lagi... gusto ko din naman maging masaya... gusto ko na pwede ko hawakan yung tenga mo kahit nasan ako... pero i guess, hindi pwede...

pano kung sabihin ko sayo na simuLa sa araw na to... tuturuan ko na ang sariLi ko na mag-move on... tuturuan ko na ang sariLi ko na wag ng umasa... tuturuan ko na ang sariLi ko na tanggapin na hanggang magkaibigan naLang tayo... masakit... mahirap... pero kaiLangan ko gawin to... para sakin... para kahit hindi ka na uLit Lumingon, hindi na masakit... at para rin sayo,,, para maibigay mo ang Lahat sa taong nagmamahaL ng sobra sayo...

i hope you understand... kahit hindi ngayon, sana baLang araw maintindihan mo ko... seLfish man pakinggan, pero kaiLangan ko naman magtira ng kahit konti para sa sariLi ko... i can onLy wait & hoLd out for too Long... napapagod din ako... pero kung sakaLing muLi tayong pagtagpuin ng tadhana, na waLang kasamang kumpLikasyon... na you're not just passing by, but you're gonna stay... sana batiin mo ko... sabihin mo sakin... kapag ayaw kong makinig, isigaw mo... basta, ipaaLam mo sakin... sabihin mo sakin...

magiging ok ka ba? maipapangako mo ba sakin na magiging masaya ka? na gagawin mo ang Lahat para maging masaya ka?

sana kaya kong sabihin sayo to... pero hindi eh, hindi ko kaya... so, im sorry... sorry for not teLLing you this in person... at sorry din kung nasaktan ka... im sorry...

-bAsHa-

2007 - 2008

2008-01-01T07:26:00.000+08:00

~ Juz a few of my discoveries (that i remembered) in 2007...

1. choco-dipped carameL popcorn are one of the most awesome inventions ever!

2. One More Chance is a great movie... (top 1 pinoy movie of 2007)

3. forgetting ur keys inside the car for the first time is freaky! but expect it to happen again... hahaha

4. doing micro Lab journaLs the day before finaLs is soooooo NOT a good idea!

5. Chris Brown is a berry good dancer... &&& he's onLy wat? 18???

6. Gossip GirL is the new MUST-SEE TV show besides Grey's Anatomy...

7. "CLOSURE" - everybody needs cLosure...

8. im stiLL Looking for my "pErsOn"...

9. i can paint! =P

10. PiNESEE = u guys are the best!!! & amishoo aLready!!!

11. apoLogize by TimbaLand = top 1 song of 2007

12. one of the greatest Lesson::: "but now faith, hope, Love, abide these three; but the greatest of these is Love."

13. some peopLe may not be the person you had hope they were... =(

14. found out that i trust peopLe berry fast... but some peopLe break it faster!

15. "truth hurts... but its worth hearing - so that once & for aLL matauhan ka!" -tekim

16. Kabuki = top 1 restaurant of 2007

17. sometimes, we hope for the one we can't have... even if they hurted us at one point... bakit kaya?

18. frozen yogurt with fresh fruits = top 1 "make-me-happy" dessert!

19. my famiLy makes me str...D

20. i turned 20! psshh =P

~ a new beginning... something to Look forward!

2 - spring break at NY

0 - Nursing Program

0 - Learning how to use chopsticks

8 - magic! fireworks! LOVE!

scary...

2007-05-30T06:14:00.000+08:00

it's been a whiLe... i don't have much things going on to write in here that's why no new post... but right now,,, i want to teLL the whoLe worLd what im thinking, what im feeLing & most especiaLLy i want this to be a warning... haha =D

to someone::: YOU are definiteLy not cLoseLy reLated to me, not my cLose friend nor even my boyfriend... so don't act Like one!!! STOP teLLing me what i shouLd or shouLdn't do! STOP bugging me!!! STOP caLLing me every now and then... STOP acting Like what you're acting because... YOU ARE SCARiNG ME!!! you're giving me the creeps!!! & i DON'T Like it, very much!!! but thanks for being nice and aLL, its just that i think you are heading too cLose to the "Line"... if we can be the way we were before, that wouLd be great, no weird stuffs & no YOU caLLing me every... now... and... then... im saying this not to hurt you nor to make you feeL bad... i just want to CLEAR stuffs even before it goes too far,,, out of controL... u know... i don't want to feeL bad as weLL ignoring you (because you are scarring me..), but you Leave me no choice... so yeah, if you couLd step back some more, that wouLd be greatLy appreciated... ^_^ remember, i don't intend to hurt you or anything... just making myseLf cLear! ok?

nyhoo,,, Life is stiLL the same... no fairy taLes,,, just YET! but stiLL hoping & beLieving... there's a Lot of new movies coming & thank God, so far i am updated... haha =D Life has never been better for me... tough times came but survived... schooL wise, God's hearing my prayers... im staying focus on my goaL which is reaLLy reaLLy good! =) i have a week vacation Left before summer cLass starts... (better make the most out of it)! but yeah, im taking summer cLass... kinda scared not because of what im taking but because......... just because... haha =D

Strawberries and Champagne. . .

2007-02-23T13:58:00.000+08:00

im tired...

i don't know why im even typing this...
it's nonsense!!!

there's a Lot of stuffs going on in my mind... i can't heLp thinking, even if i don't want to think anymore... it's stuck there! it won't go away!!! worst, it's scrabbLed... i can't put it together and i can't do something about it... i can't teLL anyone because i don't know what to teLL them...

anyhow... i know this wiLL pass!!! for sure! ^_^

Strawberries are good... Champagne??? yeah they're good too,,, i think??? haha =D stiLL, i need more chocoLates! chocoLates heLp! they aLways heLp... ^_^

for me:::
- soft tacos are better than hard tacos...
- not commenting on something is better than saying something stupid...
- mao is the best card game so far...
- red is awesome! best coLor invented ever...
- hoLding back something inside can be exhausting...
- chocoLates are one of the best things in the worLd...
- Grey's Anatomy,,, simpLy the best!
- everybody needs a "person"...

fiLL it in. . .

2007-02-12T06:26:00.000+08:00

Dear KrystLe,

You make me __________. You should __________. Someday I will _______. You = __________. If I saw you right now I would _________. I would build ________ just for you. I would get your name tattooed on my _________. If I could sing a song it would be _________. We could drink _______ under the stars. My love for you is like that of ________.

Love, __________

P.S. ( _________.)

*** saw this at my friend's myspace bLog (using my sister's account)... i think it's cute when ppoL answer it back... haha =D so yeah, to everyone who wants to answer it, send it to my emaiL... hugss! ^_^

do you think it's gonna rain tonight?

2007-02-08T12:09:00.000+08:00

fact is::: i'm gay! =)

i miss my Long hair... =( but short hair is better, Less time fixing it... haha

im so broke, i want to work again... i miss having $$$ to buy foods and cLothes... having no money s*cks!

can't wait for Grey's Anatomy Season Three on DVD... haha =D adik!!!

i'm being Lazy these past few weeks... and i totaLLy hate it! i need more chocoLates and encouragement...

we've just started dissecting a cat in my Anatomy cLass,,, Like a reaL dead cat... it's awesome!!! totaLLy cooLness!!! though the cat stinks... i think it's fun... uber-enjoyabLe... ^_^

i saw a video cLip of CindereLLa III and i think it's cooL... anyone who owns the DVD, pLease Lend it to me... im curious... "what if the sLipper didn't fit?"

yeah...

what if the sLipper didn't fit? it couLd be a good thing... or maybe NOT... if the sLipper didn't fit,,, there's no 'happiLy ever after'... no fairy taLe, no fireworks, no magic... my worLd wiLL sureLy be dark!!! Lame!!! ugLy!!! so, good thing it's just an IF... the sLipper did fit after aLL... ^_^

QUESTION::: do you eat baLut? incLuding the sisiw?

bLessing...

2007-01-24T12:05:00.000+08:00

"the greatest thing you'LL ever Learn is just to Love and be Loved in return." - Christian of Moulin Rouge >>> we wait... and wait... and wait... even if it takes forever, we keep on waiting... even if we know that sometimes we're waiting for nothing, for no one...

"surgeons are controL freaks. with a scaLpeL in your hand you feeL unstoppabLe." - Meredith of Grey's Anatomy >>> who cares! i stiLL want to be a surgeon... haha =D i can see myseLf hoLding a scaLpeL and saving someone's Life... that is just GREAT!!! ^_^

first week of cLass = DONE! aLL the get-to-know-your-teacher-and-cLassmates stuff is DONE... honestLy, i actuaLLy freaked out Last friday because of my Anatomy cLass... it's overwheLming! but yeah, im surviving it... the freaking-out part is over! for now, im concentrating... eLiminating the bad thoughts and just doing my best... ^_^

super duper great-EST news::: i saw my Last term's finaL exam on Math... the test was worth 200 points... ok enough said! you figure out the rest and why it's the super duper great-EST news... i don't want to be the big headed here... hahaha =D but yeah, im GLAD!!! ^_^ FYI though::: i didn't get 200 points...

fact::: once more He proved to me that even if i don't ask for things verbaLLy, He Listens to my heart and He gives it to me in the right time... when i Least expect it!

more facts::: patience is a virtue... no need to rush because it wiLL aLL come to you in the right time, right pLace, right day and the right moment... ^_^ Learn to trust... as they aLways say, trust is Like a vase... once broken, though you can fix it, the vase wiLL never be the same again... =] disguising is fun... smiLe even if the whoLe worLd is on your shouLder... it heLps make stuffs easier, funnier and Lighter... =D

i can't faLL in Love with anyone.................................. wait!!! did i say CAN'T??? gosh! what is wrong with me??? haha =D this is funny!!! anyway, this is NOT an impLication that i AM currentLy in Love with someone nor i am NOT in Love with someone... get it? but yeah, to y'aLL peopLe... it's ugLy! totaLLy ugLy to say something NICE to someone then vanish! *poof* it became koko krunch! not the LiteraL vanish, vanish... but just vanish... seriousLy?!? Like seriousLy?!?! seriousLy... i just don't get it!!!

FINE... over and out! ^_^

new year...

2007-01-02T15:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR Y'ALL!!!

here i am,,, again,,, speaking my heart out... weLL reaLLy, i just don't want the first day of the new year pass by without posting something even if it's nonsense... haha

~im expecting my Laptop tomorrow... hopefuLLy UPS won't Let me down... haha =D
~i miss New Year in the PhiLippines, it's totaLLy different! it's Louder, noisier, messier, and the best!
~i ate a Lot this hoLiday, especiaLLy crab...
hoping it adds up to my weight (cross fingers)... hehe

my new years' resoLution: to be a better person in aLL aspects of Life...

"i may not be that good of a person Last year, i may have done a Lot of seLfish things, and i may have hurt a Lot of peopLe... beLieve me, i know! but it's the new year, a new start, a new beginning... a time where you Leave the past behind and make it as a strong buiLding bLocks of your future... others may think differentLy as i do, some may not even understand it, but it's the mystery of Life... it's what makes Living in this worLd exciting... for now, i just want to be happy... happier..."

i don't know. . .

2006-12-15T08:40:00.000+08:00

how come a Lot of peopLe feeL it? how come most of the peopLe i know, has it or is feeLing it? am i that bad not to feeL it? i kept searching since the day i knew what "it" meant... stiLL, haven't got any answers... stiLL, haven't experienced it... why? i don't know...

my reading teacher Last monday read a book titLed "The True Story of the Three Little Pigs", i haven't heard nor read this book... i onLy know that the woLf was the BIG BAD woLf, period! it was a funny book, hiLarious even... a cup of sugar and a sneeze made the Three LittLe Pigs' story... maybe we're not used to hearing the other side of the story... maybe I AM not used to hearing the other side of the story... maybe some wouLd just want to stick with the one they grew up with... i don't know...

"i don't know"... is that a bad word? what does it reaLLy mean? how come when i say it, peopLe think it's a bad word? weird!!!

i've heard someone say im stubborn... i Looked it up in the dictionary and here's what it means: "unreasonably obstinate; obstinately unmoving:" now, what is obstinate? obstinate is: "not yielding to argument, persuasion, or entreaty." so, am i reaLLy stubborn? haha i don't know!

someone aLso toLd me im pretty... hihihi ^_^ i said thank you, then another someone said "don't beLieve him (the guy who said im pretty), because even he thinks pokwang is pretty!" hahaha Laughed my heart out that time, i aLmost cried because of Laughing... =D so what? at Least that day, even if i was feeLing stupid and irritated, someone said i was pretty... **giggLe**

Last sunday night, i gave my mom my code for my ATM card... she asked me why am i teLLing her, then i said: "you know, just in case God takes me tomorrow... at Least someone knows my pin#... and you couLd have aLL the money there, it's not a Lot but you can have it..." my mom Laughed so hard... funny! then i reaLized one more reason why i am stiLL aLive... and that is to make my mom happy! ^_^

right now, aLL i know is that i made a Lot of mistakes... im a human being! other than that, i don't know... guess, onLy few peopLe wiLL understand and wouLd reamain cLose to me... stiLL, i stand with what i beLieve in! ^_^ no matter what, no matter how...

oh yeah, it's my finaLs at schooL... started today and ending on next wednesday... prayers wouLd be reaLLy heLpfuL peopLe... and chocoLates too... ^_^ worLd pish!

bAnYo QuEeN

2006-12-04T09:00:00.000+08:00

i'm totaLLy confused about a Lot of things... ok, maybe i got it aLL wrong... im unfair, seLfish, careLess, whatever! but who cares, it's my birthday tomorrow.. and i'm aLLowed to do this??? nah!!! i know i'm not! but yeah, at night when i think about aLL the stuffs that's happening, it's Like "in the end,,, it wiLL stiLL be my fauLt..." regardLess of what and how it happened... some wiLL stiLL see it as MY fauLt... why am i writing this? guess, i just don't care at aLL...Like my mom said, "the onLy thing that matters is your reLationship with God.. whatever other peopLe say and think..." even if i try to care what other peopLe say, i just don't feeL Like it! weLL, maybe somehow i get affected too.. but who cares, i have my famiLy with me, my best friends, and most of aLL GOD...

many peopLe may not understand the way i Live my Life, the way i do things or even the way i taLk.. but that's the BOMB baby! it's how i differ from other peopLe, it's where i say, "i am unique! take it or Leave it!"

oh yeah, i am pLanning on deLeting my friendster and myspace account... but i stiLL don't know, tomorrow's the deadLine for myseLf... wheeeee!!! i thought of how wiLL my Life be without friendster and myspace??? haha and besides, i can aLways make another one if i want to... however, i wiLL be keeping my emaiL accounts and this one (my worLd!)...

before i forget, you may be thinking why "bAnYo QuEen"? weLL, here's the thing.. in our smaLL humbLe home... and when i say smaLL, it's reaLLy smaLL.. did i say smaLL? yes, it smaLL but it's a home (not just a house)... =P i find peace at the bathroom! weird eh? but yes, i do! you know how it is, when someone's inside no one can go inside too.. you own the room even just for a few minutes... what am i doing? haha Let's not go in there.. ok?

so,,, once again it's my birthday tomorrow... another year added to my age... a year where i've Learned a Lot of things... a Lot of triaLs came in our way, but we survived! haha we're stiLL aLive and stiLL breathing... there's a Lot to be thankfuL for... and in this birthday of mine, i wish (besides worLd peace! hehe)... ooppss! i forgot, i can't teLL my wish.. sorry! haha =D

LastLy, to aLL ye peopLe out there.. worLd peace starts in your own bathroom! hihihi i know it doesn't connect, but yeah! it's my worLd, remember?

xs:
pasta = $20.00... saLmon = $15.00... chicken = $10.00...
my famiLy, my friends and Loved ones = PRICELESS!!! ^_^

oNcE aGaiN. . .

2006-11-23T00:27:00.000+08:00

i've decided to bring back my bLogspot to Life,,, once again.. since this is my worLd and i own it, nobody's aLLowed to mess with me here.. i'm free, i can do whatever i want in here.. and i can taLk about anything in here... so yeah! i'm back... oNcE aGaiN!!!

--- mixed and random ---

* United States of America - the Land of the free... home of the brave... what eLse couLd u ask for? Living here for aLmost 2 years (gosh! how time fLies so fast!), i've Learned a Lot of things... and i am stiLL Learning everyday... do i regret coming here? of course not! but if i was rich, i wouLd never even think of coming here... Life is hard in here.. dude! i cannot even feeL weekends anymore! everything's in such a fast mode, it's Like time is not enough...

* "there is no such thing as free Lunch.. unLess, of course, someone wiLL pay it for you..." - yes! this is soooo true.. you want something, you gotta work for it.. gas prices are sooo high that you wouLd just want to take the train... connection of train and Lunch? i don't know... haha
* "doesn't matter what you do in Life, what matters the most is how you enjoyed and Lived your Life..." - this is one of the things i personaLLy agree to... as Long as im happy, be it! whatever!
* "there is nothing impossibLe to him who wiLL try..." - schooL is sooo FUN!!! im getting A's... haha
* "no one can make you feeL inferior without your consent..." - don't hate me because im smart.. and beautifuL... hahaha =D
* "never accept a C grade for it wiLL cause heartaches..." - got a C for my 1st essay.. oh you don't want to know my reaction... i was pLanning on dropping the cLass.. geezz!! but thanks to my HSG, kept me going!!!

* i HATE expectations... i hate it when peopLe expect something from me..
* i HATE pressure... i don't Like it when peopLe are pressuring me.. imagine: shopping and someone's timing you.. how crueL can that be? aight?
* i Love getting hugs and gifts.. speaking of which,,, my birthday's coming soon!!! haha
* i miss my best friends sooo much.. i'LL do anything to be with them again... they come 3rd on my priorities...
* proven by me: oLder peopLe are great friends.. they watch you, take care of you and spoiL you... that's why i Love my chichays...
* cross your fingers too: i'm #54 at the waiting List for my anatomy cLass.. hopefuLLy i get in..
* sLeeping is stiLL my #1 hobby...

so yeah, i'LL be updating this once in a whiLe... join me as i continue Living in this worLd for the quest of one true happiness...

@ 18

2005-12-07T07:01:00.000+08:00

im 18...

nothing changed,,, juz my age... hehe what did i do days before my birthday? went to church, watched harry potter Last saturday night (12/3) with some friends, bother my reLatives for my gifts, iron some cLothes & sLeep... hahaha what i did the morning of my birthday? wake up, brush my teeth, saw my present, cry & dress up for work... haaayy,,, how i wish my birthday were a hoLiday... time fLies sooo fast! what i did the afternoon of my birthday? went home, daydream, watched tv, ate aLot ('coz my mom cooked aLot of food) & make 'baon'... actuaLLy, im not supposed to do anything when i come home, its supposed to be a free househoLd chores day for me.. but then, my dear oLd sister was crazy & ask me to do our 'baon'... good thing, my dad heLped me out because he understands the "free househoLd chores day" & i think my sister don't... wahaha

thought about harry potter: why did they get someone cute to pLay cedric when in fact he has to die at the end??? men! that was sad... & it came so fast,,, they got transported to the graveyard & boom - avadakedavra!!! huhuhu =( & cho wasn't that cute,,, it couLd have been better if it was me... haha (waLang kokontra, birthday ko kahapon) =D =D =D

haayy, trip ko Lang gumawa ng post at mgLagay ng pic dito... waLa kasing ginagawa sa trabaho e... hehe ^_^

xs: wanna thank everyone who remembered... & to those who didn't,,, bahaLa kayo!!! wahaha ayy tsaka paLa yung mga regaLo nyo ha... hehe pish out!

aLmond_joy

2005-12-03T05:41:00.000+08:00

*_#-$~"/* aLam nyo ba yung chocoLate na aLmond joy? miLk chocoLate with coconut & aLmonds... yan ang Lgi kong nakukuha pag nagbibigay ng chocoLate yung kasama ko sa trabaho... nagiging koLeksyon na nga sya sa bahay namin e, bakit? una, di ako kumakain nun dahiL ayaw ko ng may nuts/aLmonds/fruits... LaLo namang ayaw ko ng may coconut... kaya inuuwi ko naLang, e waLa ding nakain sa bahay.. kaya koLeksyon na sya ngayon... hahaha =D hindi naman ako maka-hindi dahiL nakakahiya Lagi na kasi akong humihindi.. kaya para sa taong nanghihingi ng chocoLate may mapapadaLa na ko, hintay ka Lang iipunin ko muna para marami... hehe */"~$-#_*

waLa Lang trip ko Lang mag-post kasi waLang magawa,,, waLa masyadong trabaho... hehehe at maLapit na kasi birthday ko.. kaya mga tao,,, padaLa nyo naLang dito... wahahahaha ^_^

xs: gusto ko ng mcdo!!!

2005-11-21T11:50:00.000+08:00

pLease kiLL me now, so that my pain & sufferings wouLd be over.. pLease get me now, whiLe my sins are few, for if it becomes too many you may hate me & i may be unworthy.. for i may not have the strength & faith to survive the Life that Lies ahead of me.. but Your will be done.. Amen

2005-11-19T22:34:00.000+08:00

pLease... don't do this to me!

have mercy!!!

im begging you...

. . . . .

"Let me watch 'harry potter',,, there's aLways a way... hahaha"

trabaho ng isang prinsesa. . .

2005-11-18T16:12:00.000+08:00

* APM = Assistant Production Manager
meaning. . . . .
* FC = FoiL Cutter
* WU = Wip Updater
* O = Organizer
* FS = File Searcher
* PLM = Packing List Maker
* POK = Purchase Order Keeper
* PWCGOP = Person Who Criticize Other People (specially - CHAT) hahaha
pag-uwi ng bahay. . . . .
* TAGA...
* taga-hugas ng pLato
* taga-waLis ng kwarto
* taga-Laba
* taga-pLantsa
* taga-tuLog
* taga-kain
* taga-nood ng tv
* taga-Lahat na,, pwera Lang taga-Luto.. hehe

~haayyy buhay... medyo adventure,,, every day's a new day in production... & peopLe are nice, so it's ok... got my 1st pay check... wuuuhuuuuu!!! & for that, im gonna treat myeLf for a... hmmm?? fruits basket, what eLse? hehe
~maLapit na birthday ko!!! mga ppoL,,, pa-fedex nyo naLang ang mga gift nyo... hehe
~i wouLd Like to take this opportunity to thank the ppoL who answered the sarbey... saLamat pu.. hehe touch ako... ^_^
~showing na ng harry potter gobLet of fire... can't wait to watch it!!! yehey!!! =D
~share ko Lang... i reaLLy Love this song,,, so iLL sing it for you guys... "and how can i pretend that i don't know what's going on? when every second and every minute another souL is gone... and i beLieve that in my Life i wiLL see an end to hopeLessness or giving up or suffering... and if we aLL stand together this one time then no one wiLL get Left behind... and stand up for Life stand up and here me sing... stand up for Love..." (worLd pish ppoL) hehe

beLieve me,,, it's nonsense... hahaha ^_^

2005-08-26T19:28:00.000+08:00

it's been a whiLe since my Last post here... (waLa pa nga atang sense yung huLi eh) it's just that nothing extraordinary happened or anything that i shouLd taLk about... Life seems to be,,, simpLe... yeah,,, fun (madami kasing gmick)... but its stiLL not the same... peopLe are sLowLy fading away... i don't know why but it seems Like they are... weird i guess,,, 'coz i may be the onLy one thinking of these stuff... ahhh basta,,, i therefore concLude...

~ that my Life right now was kinda compLicated & hard... it's not the same as before... i have to hide my feeLings and thoughts because nobody wouLd understand (makadagdag pa sa stress)... i dunno! weirdiness ito! ~

+#+ oi mga ppoL,,, juz want u to know na buhay pa ko... & i shaLL return! kaya sa mga nakakaLimot,,, Lagot kayo pag baLik ko... hahahaha =D +#+

juz' pLaying around... ^_^

2005-07-04T23:30:00.000+08:00

name 20 peopLe you know...
1. ate kim
2. kuya simon
3. ate junneL
4. kuya james
5. kg
6. nats
7. jeLLa
8. krystLe
9. fhea
10. ge
11. kaye
12. dan
13. duerms
14. austin
15. aLLen
16. rayon
17. aLex
18. kuya mark
19. orlando bLoom
20. ka dean

then, fiLL this out according to the peopLe you chose!!!
1. who is 8 going out with?
~ nobody...
2. is 9 a boy or a girL?
~ girL
3. wouLd 11 and 2 make a cute coupLe?
~ no,,, 11's aLready taken...
4. how about 18 and 4?
~ no way! 4's getting married
5. what grade is 17 in?
~ 2nd year coLLege
6. when was the Last time you taLked to 12?
~ may 17, 2005
7. what is 6's favorite band?
~ the cradLe? not sure...
8. does 1 have any sibLing/s?
~ yup yup...
9. would you ever date 3?
~ yeah,,, girL bonding! (she's my cousin)
10. would you ever date 10?
~ if he'LL ask... ^_^
11. is 16 singLe?
~ i guess,,, waLa akong baLita 'bout him...
12. what's 15's Last name?
~ syed...
13. what's 5's middLe name?
~ cabacungan...
14. what's 10's fantasy?
~ me? naah!!! i don't know,,, 'coz we juz met... ^_^
15. would 8 and 19 make a good coupLe?
~ definiteLy YES... hahaha
16. what schooL does 20 go to?
~ NEU for ministry...
17. teLL me a random fact about 11.
~ we have aLot of things in common...
18. and 1.
~ she's crazy! hahaha =P
19. have you ever had a crush on 16?
~ we're tropa,,, we Love each other... ayt?
20. where does 9 Live?
~ house... =D
21. what's 4's favorite coLor?
~ don't have time to ask him that...
22. wouLd you makeout with 14?
~ if & when we get married... =P
23. are 5 & 1 best friends?
~ no,,, 'coz 5's my bestfriend...
24. do you Like 20?
~ Like? in what sense?
25. does 8 Like 9?
~ yeah,,, she's one of my cLosest friend...
26. how did you meet 15?
~ at schooL...
27. does 3 have any pets?
~ yeah
28. is 12 oLder than you?
~ nope...
29. is 1 the sexiest person?
~ heLL no!!! hahaha =D
30. have you ever given 13 a hug?
~ yeah...

._"- juz sharing -"_,

2005-06-28T16:08:00.000+08:00

within the past few weeks/days... (for more than a month)

~ mga natutunan at mga ginawa ~

> magLuto ng sinigang sa miso para may makain

> magpakain ng mga ibon (paroLette) para may income

> uLit-uLitin ang aLbum na covers ni regine hanggang ma-memorize ang Lyrics

> manood ng mga romantic movies (tagaLog man o engLish)

> magpicture-picture sa Lahat ng gmick

> ngumiti habang nakasakay sa roLLer coaster dahiL aLam kong may hidden camera

> sumakay sa mga kiddie rides para masamahan si amanda (sarap paLang maging 3 years oLd)

> mag-ipon ng 'greens' para may pambiLi ng fonekard

> magvacuum ng carpet

> matuLog na hindi maLikot para magkasya sa kama

> mag-maintain ng maayos na maLeta para magkasya Lahat ng damit

> mag-hope na sana makapag Log-in sa internet at wag magLoko ang computer

> pag-araLang gumana ang IR ni ate kim para magamit ko

> wag isipin ang exchange rate ng doLLar to peso o peso to doLLar dahiL waLa naman akong papapaLit

> magpasaLamat at sa wakas nakapanood din ng episode III ng starwars

> magpatawa sa gitna ng napakaraming probLema

> magtiwaLa sa 911

> magpLano ng mga gusto kong gawin sa future with my famiLy

> mangarap at mag-isip kung anong mangyayari sa birthday ko (kahit maLayo pa)

> titigan yung cute na ka-choir member namin

> iwasang magaLit sa mga tao na nag-aakaLang tanga at manhid ako

> maghintay ng katotohanan (kahit akaLa ng Lahat waLa akong aLam)...

stop, Look & read!

2005-05-25T15:03:00.000+08:00

haayy... after 50 years nakapgOL din kami... saLamat sa napaka-gandang bahay ng tita ko na waLang sabong pampaLigo... ^_^ whoLe day bukas ang computer sa sobrang kasabikan namin ni ate kim na magOL... meant to be kasi may naabutang mga tao,,, kaya ok... worth it!

"when i got inside the pLane,,, i know there's no turning back... kahit na marami akong naiwan..."

starting a new Life is Like a game,,, you start from (zero) 0... kaiLangan matatag ka kundi baka ma-game over ka agad... kaiLangan survivor ka kundi mapag-iiwanan ka... kaiLangan di ka iyakin kasi waLang murang ice cream na mabibiLi para mapatahan ka... pero bago ko umaLis, a Lot of peopLe toLd me na maganda daw dito... kaLa siguro niLa madaLi ang buhay,,, weLL HiNDi po! kaLa nyo Lang yun...

nakakamiss ang compound namin na may oLympic size swimming pooL (summer na meron paring tubig, di nawawaLan)...yung kotse naming Laspag-Laspag na,,, pero umaandar parin at ako ang nagmamaneho (di pa ko makapagdrive dito kasi waLa pa ko Lisensya, waLa rin naman ako kotse - padaLa nyo kaya yung kotse ko)... yung coLLection kong w.i.t.c.h mag na haLos dun nauubos pera ko... yung bahay namin na Laging maLinis at may pagkain LaLo na pag may bwisita... ang mga tao sa Loob ng compound, mga batang maingay sa tanghaLi (di tuLoy ako makatuLog), tito at tita ko na di nauubusan ng pagkain at mahiLig manLibre, mga pinsan kong mapang-asar at may LoveLife (taLo pa ko, e mas bata sakin yun)... yung tindahan sa compound namin na pwede ang utang... ang church namin na konti Lang ang nakikita kong cute ^_^... ang chona's angeLs na sobrang sayang kasama at sobrang bait,,, sarap kasama sa gimick (todo na 'to!)... si LoLo bhong, si duerms, si dan_dan mga pasaway - pero sobrang bait (binigyan pa kami ng pabaon,,, "kakahiya naman!")... si PM - panget kasi e! sana Lang wag nya ko makaLimutan... ang SFC tropa - mga pagLaLakad sa initan ng araw, mga kadramahan, mga gmick, mga senti mode at Lahat na... ang barkada (hon_jeLLa, bes_kg, apyang, bim, apriL & Lex) kong panghabambuhay,,, yun bang at the end of the day when everyone's against me sa kaniLa ang bagsak ko... si hon ko na kasama ko sa hirap at ginhawa, sa iyakan o tawanan, sa init at Lamig, sa kiLig moments at barahan bLues... si bes at apyang na pag pinagsama kami ay parang waLa ng bukas... the best yung night before our fLight nasa bahay siLa at sobrang guLo LaLo ng bahay... pero ok Lang i'LL be missing them badLy... sayang the rest - i didn't even see them,,, but they stiLL got a minute to make me smiLe and say the best ang barkadang to... haaayyy,,, nakakamis taLaga ang p.i (hindi yan bad word - phiL isLand daw sabi niLa)... pero sabi nga niLa, ok Lang daw sakin na mamiss ko ang p.i at mag-isip ng sobra... kasi daw tumatakaw ang tao pag sobrang nag-iisip, kaya ok Lang daw para tumaba ako... ^_^

dagdag pa natin ang sad reaLity... THEY'VE MOVED ON! ALL OF THEM... i mean, ano ba naman at nawaLa kami ni ate kim... kung yun nga sa kanya,,, nagpaLit na ng picture e... yung akin,,, meron ba? waLa naman! hirit pa ko e noh... pero nagmimiscoL sakin si PM... hehe =) pero the rest, waLa... kasaLanan ko pa!

pasensya na at mahaba ito... ibinuhos ko na Lahat baka kasi after 50 years uLit bago kami makapagOL... dapat taLaga di ako magpopost dito dapat dun sa isang bLogspot na ginawa ko,,, kaso waLang frontpage dito... e di hindi ko ma-edit... probLema tuLoy pano gagawin ko,,, kaiLangan maiLabas ang mga dapat sabihin pero waLang pa ko makitang paraan... bahaLa na si superman,,, LaLagay ko naLang sa bote tapos papaanod ko sa pacific ocean baka sakaLing makarating sa.......... aLam nyo na yun... hahaha ^_^

SANA MAY ANGHEL NA MAGDALA DITO... ng bahay namin at Lahat ng gamit sa Loob nun... kotse namin... safeguard na sabon yung fruity fLavor,,, waLa kasi nun dito... chowking (HP branch) pati yung mga crew para di na maLungkot ate kim ko... computer shop para hindi Lang once every 50 years ang pagOL ko... isang mansyon at sa Loob nun Lahat ng mga mahaL ko na naiwan... sana posibLe,,, para masaya na... at para hindi probLema kahit hindi ko marepLyan ang mga tao ok Lang,,, mahaL ang text dito pag gLobe noh! kainis,,, sana pwede sun kaso hindi e... hehe ^_^

o chige,,, enough of this buLL... how i wish that next time, i won't be this crazy... chiLL!

im back. . .

2005-04-20T13:07:00.000+08:00

nagpahinga Lang ng konti,,, stress kasi ang schooL...weLL, ok na... tapos na schooL pati ang pamatay na mga dejavu... haha ^_^

bakasyon na dapat, pero eto dami paring gingawa... may mga nakakabadtrip meron din namang mga masasaya...

- voLunteer teacher kasi sa isang summer kinder program, tapos makakasama mo pa e mga batang mas pasaway pa kesa sakin... pati baon kong junk food kinukuha, pati yung pepsi na Libre ng pinsan ko inubos, kainis! oh weLL, ganun taLaga ang buhay...

- eto pa... dahiL waLa ng pasok,,, waLang baon! bankrupt tuLoy... ang mga naipon na papeL ay dapat i-budget para Laging may pang-gimick... hehe ^_^ somehow ok na rin kasi bawas gastos ang napaka-mahaL na gas...

- tapos, dito Lang kmi sa bahay hanggang sa mabuLok... di makauwi ng tarLac kasi waLang pera, waLa din siLa mama kaya waLa taLaga... =( Lagi pang gumigising ng maaga dahiL 8:00 ang pasok, na dati pag summer nananaginip paLang ako ng mga oras na yon... haaayyy...

- worst... dumadating na ang mga biLL... biLL ng kuryente, ng tubig, ng cabLe, ng teLepono at Lahat na ng uri ng biLL na dapat bayaran... paubos na ang grocery sa bahay kaya mahirap tumanggap ng bisita kasi waLang mapapakain... nakakahiya tuLoy,,, hehe

- happy side naman (showbiz gmick)... the best ang Last day ng exams namin, business math... nagsimuLa ng 9:00 ang test, may natapos ng 9:30, 9:40, 9:45 (isa ko dun)... biLis noh?! eto astig... dumating si bugs siguro mga 9:15 naka-civiLian, di tuLoy tinanggap ni miLevoi (baLik tuLoy sya sa bahay niLa)... pagtapos ko ng mga 9:45, sakto dating ni maLsi... Late na pero sigurado ko nauna pa siLa ni bugs na Lumabas sa iba... habang kami niLa rayon nag-iintay sa Lobby ng schooL mga 2 oras na rin... tinxt ko si bugs (mga 11 na yun) kung nasan na siLa, sabay repLy... "dito Library, ng neneopets..." kainis! ang iniintay namin nagLaLaro na paLa sa Lib... pero after the Long wait,,, nakaaLis narin... yung mga bagong gising sa fuLL house, bumangon narin after namin magdrama ni ate kim... =D kainan na!!! ayos taLaga... napagsarahan na kami ng dad's & naubos na namin fud niLa (naLugi siguro siLa, tingin nyo?) hehe... bsta, the best un... sobrang unforgetabLe... LaLo na ung ayaw mag-start ng tseko ko, badtrip un! kita tuLoy niLa pano ko magwaLa pag dating sa tseko... hehe ^_^ tapos cyempre para makaLusot sa checkpoint sa bf, kaiLangan ang charm... dahiL girL ako, Lusot kami... haha iwas traffic din yun ah! so happy taLaga... =) videoke naman nung gabi ang trip... syempre di mawawaLa ang nationaL anthem ng tropa na kinanta ni nats... si kuya mark naman, hiLig sa mic... si maLsi, taga-input ng susunod na number ng kanta - pero di sya kumakanta... ^_^ si crayon, di nagpakita ng kanyang taLent sa dr. jones... sayang! si bugs? Lufet kumanta... may hidden taLent... ayos! & cyempre pang finaLe kami ni ate kim, 100 pa ang score... happy taLga... sabay uwi na kasi gabi na at medyo maLayo pa ang aming fuLL house... =) di na namin naintay ang mga tao sa nasiraan na tseko (si rhoy at si mamuLloyd)... pero astig din siLa kasama... si rhoy, na waLang ginawa kundi barahin ako at inisin... si mamuLloyd na maLakas kumain at medyo demanding sa iced tea... may pagka-mushy din pag dating sa movies at mahiLig sa picture (dami nga namin pic together sa phone ni ate kim, sabi nga ni ate parang akin ung phone ksi puro pic ko)... hehe =) si geLo naman, ngbigay ng medyo maLungkot na speech nung Lunch........................................................... pero to sum it aLL up,,, sobrang saya!!! the best, and unforgetabLe... sana may showbiz gmick part2 - archie, tito boy, tito vic, ate kris, pioLo, dao & raymark... miss u guys! kita kits soon... wabyu aLL... =)

P.S - wish ko sana sa susunod umamin yung gusto kong umamin,,, nakaka-disappoint kasi diba ate kim???... grrr!!!

. . . . .

2005-04-06T19:05:00.000+08:00

"i reaLLy don't know what to say... can i just sit here in the corner & wait 'tiL the pieces are back together again? can i just have a moment of peace? a moment where i can rest & stop thinking? a moment where aLL these things are just dream? 'coz right now,,, im reaLLy tired..."

the heLL ! ! !

2005-04-01T20:07:00.000+08:00

i hate this day!

i got coLds & cough... & im not feeLing weLL since morning...

next, im cramming for my web site (heLL! its not yet done!)

and worst! can't make it here at home 'coz our computer sucks!

and now, at this very moment... i cant breathe because of my coLds...

LastLy, i haven't got my bow & arrow yet... & that makes it worst!

~crap~

"oh weLL, happy apriL fooL's day everyone..."

mine vanya araneL. . .

2005-03-28T20:25:00.000+08:00

i weg na an fofrin ar i winin na gwadron...

movie marathon. . .

2005-03-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

we got one week break from schooL... after that, pasukan na uLit... worst thing is, maLapit na finaLs... sad but true! honestLy, boring ang one week ko... waLang gmick, waLang outing, not even window shopping... =( why? first, one of my reLatives died... tapos waLa nmn siLa mama kaya waLa tLga, waLa pang papeL pang gastos (ksi nga waLang pasok)... hehehe but then, Looking at the brighter side of our house... ok Lang din ksi nakabawi ako sa tuLog tpos daming food... hahaha =)

weLL, you must be wondering why movie marathon ang titLe nito... here's the reaL story... during the past few days, nag movie marathon ako... what eLse - Lord of The Rings... hahaha =) from feLLowship, to the two towers, to the return of the king... & aLL those times, i'LL teLL you... yummy taLsga si LegoLas... ~wink ^_^~ weLL, i've Learned aLot bout toLkien, sayang pinanganak syang mas maaga, it wouLd reaLLy be a pLeasure kung nameet ko sya... think about it, he made a story Like that (gumawa sya ng sariLi nyang mundo)... ayt? weird... tapos, i've come to reaLize... i wanna be an archer... (things added to my wish List: bow & arrow) hehe pra compatibLe kmi... & im studying eLvish Language, nice noh?! i got curious with that Language, my cousin toLd me that it was invented by toLkien himseLf... nweys, to peopLe who are LOTR fanatics, my cousin aLso toLd me na may extended dvd daw ang LOTR, ksi if u were to read the books, sobrang kuLang ung movie, (heLL, every movie is... ksi nmn kung bubuuin mo boring na & msyado mhaba, ayt?) so un, sa extended dvd daw nandun ung mga kuLang... nandun din ung Love story ni LegoLas & ni krystLe... hahaha

anyone who dares to contradict me,,, wag na! bsta, something bad wiLL happen to you... hahaha =) peace out... so much for this bLah bLah, its me "owner_bitch" signing out...

a prayer. . .

2005-03-25T20:03:00.000+08:00

"God... bLess the man i Love that he may find aLL the happiness in this worLd...

as aLways. . .

2005-03-18T16:14:00.000+08:00

im sooo sLeepy!!!

Lagi nLng kuLang sa tuLog. . .

bad trip!

ALiVE. . .

2005-03-14T17:44:00.000+08:00

time goes sLowLy now in my Life

fear no more

a word i’m not sure

searching for your souL

the strength to stand aLone

the power of not knowing

and Letting go

i guess i found my way

it's simpLe when it’s right

feeLing Lucky just to be here tonight

and happy just to be me. . . and be ALiVE

Love in and out in my, in my heart

and though Life can be strange

i can’t be afraid

searching for your souL

the strength to stand aLone

the power of not knowing

and Letting go

i guess i found my way

it's simpLe when it’s right

feeLing Lucky just to be here tonight

and happy just to be me. . . and be ALiVE

TRY TO UNDERSTAND

2005-03-12T18:00:00.000+08:00

we can't be together forever, because forever doesn't exist. . .

there's a waLL that our eyes couldn't see. . .

a waLL that we know for a fact wouLd never break. . .

a waLL that hoLds our fate. . .

i have seen the suffering that LoneLiness can cause. . .

and i have feLt the same before. . .

so be patient and be contented. . .

because Lord wiLL sureLy give you the one you're Looking for. . .

now i ask. . .

wouLd you stiLL be there tomorrow?

now that you know these things, wouLd you stiLL stay?

WiSHiNG YOU WERE SOMEHOW HERE AGAiN

2005-03-12T16:12:00.000+08:00

you were once my one companion

you were aLL that mattered

you were once a friend and father

then my worLd was shattered

wishing you were somehow here again

wishing you were somehow near

sometimes it seemed if i just dreamed

somehow you would be here

wishing i could hear your voice again

knowing that i never would

dreaming of you won't heLp me to do

aLL that you dreamed i couLd

passing beLLs and scuLpted angeLs

coLd and monumentaL

seem for you the wrong companions

you were warm and gentLe

too many years, fighting back tears

why can't the past just die

wishing you were somehow here again

knowing we must say goodbye

try to forgive, teach me to Live

give me the strength to try

no more memories

no more siLent tears

no more gazing across the wasted years

heLp me say goodbye

*** Love this song (from the phantom of the opera). . .

LEAVE ME ALONE

2005-03-09T03:01:00.000+08:00

kung ang haLaman nga tumutubo at ang hayop LumaLaki, tao pa kaya… Lahat nagbabago dahiL umikot ang mundo!

kung nagbago man ako, waLa na kayong magagawa… im not asking anyone to Love me nor to Like me… if you don't Like me, i don’t care! im not born to pLease everybody!

Live your Life and i Live mine, and that's good enough… so accept me for who i am or i'll kick your fucking ass!!! hehehe wag na kasi makiaLam, para masaya Lahat…

kung gaLit ka sakin or you have any probLems with me, sabihin mo… di naman ako kumakain ng tao o pumapatay eh… and don't worry i'll take it objectiveLy… hehehe =) just don't taLk behind my back, get it?

im a princess in my own worLd. . .

2005-03-06T19:00:00.000+08:00

i don't care what you think about me, aLL that matters is that i Live my Life...

caLL me crazy, caLL me Lazy, caLL me bitch, caLL me anything you want, and i don't give a damn!

i don't have so much regrets 'coz i Live my Life my own way... i decide for myseLf and i take the consequences aLone...

i know i don't deserve much on this worLd 'coz i've wasted aLot aLready... but hey! chances are for free and i can have another one anytime... just give me time and i can prove to you - to everyone that chances given to me are worth it...

as i grow up, i Learn to understand the worLd... it's not fair and it's not unfair, it's just simpLy your perception that makes it unbeLievabLe... beauty is aLways in the eyes of the behoLder...

i don't have much to offer... i don't have money to buy everything, im not a genius that can invent erxtraordinary things... but im just simpLy... me...

before i die, i promise to pay back those peopLe i owe... and those who owe me...

i am sometimes a pain in the ass and a headache, but that's why they Love me... they Love me for who i am and what i am...

LastLy, i take one step at a time... i fight for what i know is right and for what i want, because onLy then i can teLL my seLf that i won the fight even if i Lost it in the eyes of other peopLe...

weird huh? but that's it and so be it!

the Ds...

2005-03-06T17:00:00.000+08:00

DOs
~ do,,, mind your own business...
~ do,,, Love me for who i am...
~ do,,, anything you want, i don't care...
~ do,,, give me freedom
~ do,,, Let me cry whenever i want...

DON'Ts
~ don't,,, ever dare to piss me, i might kiLL you...
~ don't,,, judge me! i am who i am & what you see is what i reaLLy am... so take it or Leave it!
~ don't,,, pLay with my feeLings 'coz it's highLy expensive...
~ don't,,, expect me to be someone that wiLL fit your standard...
~ don't,,, sit on my throne, 'coz its made just for me...

THiNK OF ME. . .

2005-03-06T13:59:00.000+08:00

think of me

think of me fondLy when we've said goodbye

remember me, once in a whiLe

pLease promise me you'LL try

when you find that once again

you Long to take your heart back and be free

if you ever find a moment

spare a thought for me

we never said our Love was evergreen

or as unchanging as the sea

but if you can stiLL remember

stop and think of me

think of aLL the things we've shared and seen

don't think about the thing which might have been

think of me

think of me waking siLent and resigned

imagine me

trying to hard to put you from my mind

recaLL those days look back on aLL those times

think of the things we'LL never do

there wiLL never be a day

when i won't think of you

we never said our Love was evergreen

or as unchanging as the sea

but pLease promise me

that sometimes you wiLL think of me

this is my worLd. . . . . you just Live in it!

NOW iN BUSiNESS!!!

Long Beach...

WHY-ness???

aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!...

im stiLL having a hard time with the time difference...

BOMB

where's the 5, peopLe? where's the 5?

WHAT iS YOUR FEAR???

because i can't sLeep...

SO FAR...

i CANNOT BELiEVE WHAT i JUST FOUND OUT!!!...

MY "TO DO" LiST...

COLORFUL BEAUTiFUL THiNGS

PROJECT POSTPONED

NEW PROJECT

... bLogging ...

REDEMPTiON

i need morphine!

LiKE DEATH & TAXES... CHANGE is inevitabLe

i got tagged!!!

ten-days-off

ALL ABOUT YESTERDAY...

DEATH iS iNEViTABLE

"NOT EVERYTHiNG iS ABOUT YOU!!!"

gossip girL

MY bech-es!

got some rest from crying...

today can't get any worse, can it?

FiNALLY... SNOW!!!

FiLL iT OUT FOR ME...

"wait for me i'm aLmost ready when he meant LET GO..." -sara bareiLLes

this is the most unnaturaL, unearthLy, freaky, strange, bizarre, surreaL, crazy, wacky feeLing!

MOViNG ON

The End??? (pubLic version)

The End???

Dear Lakay,,,

2007 - 2008

scary...

Strawberries and Champagne. . .

fiLL it in. . .

do you think it's gonna rain tonight?

bLessing...

new year...

i don't know. . .

bAnYo QuEeN

oNcE aGaiN. . .

@ 18

aLmond_joy

trabaho ng isang prinsesa. . .

beLieve me,,, it's nonsense... hahaha ^_^

juz' pLaying around... ^_^

*._"-* juz sharing *-"_,*

stop, Look & read!

im back. . .

. . . . .

the heLL ! ! !

mine vanya araneL. . .

movie marathon. . .

a prayer. . .

as aLways. . .

ALiVE. . .

TRY TO UNDERSTAND

WiSHiNG YOU WERE SOMEHOW HERE AGAiN

LEAVE ME ALONE

im a princess in my own worLd. . .

the Ds...

THiNK OF ME. . .

._"- juz sharing -"_,